Hello, I've discovered a lump at the end of July while on holiday and following the mammogram, ultrasound, biopsy cycle, I received confirmation on the 5th August that I have a triple negative cancer, just days after having a positive pregnancy test. After the ultrasound, I went from obsessing over whether I was pregnant or not to obsessing over whether I had cancer. I feel I've come to terms with the reality that I have breast cancer, but at times, it feels unreal. Tomorrow I have my first consultation at the hospital where I will be treated and am slightly anxious because although I've seen a doctor who explained my results to me, we'll need to choose a course of action tomorrow. I have a son who just turned one and I lost my mum about 10 years ago because of breast cancer. I'm 36 (today actually) and I feel somewhat optimistic but also scared. Tomorrow will move from "I have cancer, it says so on paper" to "we are actively tackling this and it will impact me, my husband, my son, my work, my whole life". Quite a long message, but I haven't actually had any in-depth discussion about my feelings with anyone. It makes it all too real.
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