Hi Chris, I can totally identify with what you are feeling. My cancer is lobular too, which seems to be the more infiltrating type. I was told on U/S mine was 17 mms ( mine couldn't be detected on MRI or mammogram)but when they operated it was 55mms. I had a lumpectomy, but because on the report there was lymph involvement and micrometastases I had to go back for an axillary clearance. Because I have 5 nodes involved I have now been referred for chemo plus radiotherapy. I see the oncologist next week. You don't have to have a mastectomy, I was offered that but decided to have the lumpectomy. I am awaiting BRAC testing results so that might change things. If there are more than 3 lymph nodes involved they recommend chemo plus radiotherapy. I wasn't prepared for that as thought the same as you so it is quite something to come to terms with I have good days and bad days, totally understand how you are feeling. The thought of chemo fills me with horror as I react badly to a lot of drugs. You can always ask for a second opinion. But it's a bit like PTSD your body goes into a state of shock. Hope you have a supportive family. Some of my friends have been great, others don't really understand. Phone the help line and chat to someone they are great
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