Breast Cancer Now Forum

Thank you Sam - I really appreciate your reply too - glad to hear that you had time to put your lippy on for the rads sessions! When I went for my first chemo session, there was a very glamorous woman there having her 3rd session - dressed in a skater dress & stilettos! That’s what I call ‘rocking it with style!’ X ... View more

I’m really hoping it will be the FAST regime, which is 5 sessions instead of 15. They were due to roll it out anyway, but COVID meant it was brought forward for obvious reasons. Fingers crossed! Xx ... View more

Thank you Evie, it’s just the planning session for markers (phew!). I really feel a bit stunned by the whole process (I know I’m not alone, reading peoples posts) & any talk of tests & results makes me head for the hills! 🙈 xx ... View more

Hi, I’m due to have radiotherapy in July & am rather worried about more investigations 😢  Does the planning CT scan just look at the area to be treated, or all over? I’m so ‘test and results’ overloaded that I can’t face anything else for a long, long time! Even the pre-chemo bloods send me into a cold sweat.... 😫 ... View more

You’re not alone Maisy Moo - I’m going through exactly the same at the moment! please feel free to climb the curtains with me 😉 Message me if you’d like? X ... View more

Thank you Sandpiper, Im home from hospital and have to say that this is quite do-able! Pain wise I only had Paracetamol and I’m doing my exercises as instructed 😇 Rather frustrated by the arm restrictions and drains, but I always want to get back to normal as quickly as possible. Definitely not going to jeopardise the surgeon’s handiwork though! Xx ... View more

Hi scared75, Im sorry to hear your diagnosis and - like us all on here - we’re here to support you through it all. Everything you describe is perfectly normal (especially the meltdowns!). I found the nights and early mornings particularly difficult, even though my diagnosis was a few days before Xmas and I had people staying (I live alone). Anxiety and fear are normal emotions at this time, but this is very treatable and you will be fine - honestly! Reach out whenever you want - we’re all here - there’s nothing you’re feeling that we’re not (or haven’t!). We understand completely Xx ... View more

Bless your heart - it’s the position they had your arm on the operating table to a large extent, as well as tootling around your armpit 🤨 Youre doing just great - keep it up! X ... View more

I think for me, the early mornings are the worst....I’m still working and that keeps my mind focused all day.  Evenings are lovely & cosy watching TV with my dogs and enjoying a glass of wine ☺️ I wake before the alarm and sadly realise I still have bc....then the thoughts take over & I have to really force myself to behave!  I agree that we’re super heros and flipping wonderful going through all of this - its a complete roller coaster & we’ll all be pleased to get off! X ... View more

Sending big hugs for tomorrow - I’m not far behind you and soon we can say we HAD breast cancer ☺️ We’re all here for you & be in touch when you feel like it x ... View more

I’m glad you will - I’ll probably be the same with Anastrozole! 😂 😂 My surgery is in 2 weeks and I’m already worrying about lymph node involvement - I don’t know why I keep doing this as worrying won’t change anything at all 🙈 I just need to get through this next step and then on to the next anxious period! X ... View more

Hi Shablah - I’m delighted that everything is going well & that things are moving along 🥰 As for the Tamoxifen - take it!! It stops cancer from recurring & any side effects can be managed - honestly! (I guess anything new is scary though) xx ... View more

Hi Shablah, Thats fantastic news about your surgery - I’m praying that my lymph nodes are clear - that’s the part that is giving me terrible anxiety! Im really not worried about radiotherapy or Anastrazole, but I’m worried about my staging post surgery.  I intend to go back to work as soon as I can, hopefully!  Good luck for tomorrow - keep us posted? X ... View more

Hi Posden, We must never - I mean NEVER - Google again!! 😂 My day was awful after frightening myself and it took a lot of soul-searching / friend chats / shopping / doggy hugs to get me back on track! Please feel free to PM me if you want to - I’m happy to chat & hopefully give you a cyber hug xx ... View more

It’s wonderful to hear people say ‘mine was 5 years ago’ etc! It gives me strength to feel that I can do this and be ok - I’m in my early 60s, but still working and I love to garden, walk, read and sew.  At the moment I can’t see beyond the week ahead and I’m apprehensive about surgery - although it will be a massive relief to get rid of my booby lumps! 👏🏻 ... View more

Jill, that’s a very good point you make - I was diagnosed just before Christmas and of course was surrounded by people over the festive season. I still felt very, very alone with my diagnosis and kept up a pretence of ‘business as usual’, rather than upsetting everyone! In the privacy of my room and during the night was a different thing though 😔 xx ... View more

Thank you Jill - it’s good to know I’m not being a diva!!  My bottom lip has been very wobbly today, but I forced myself to go shopping for some gorgeously soft (front buttoning) PJs and an overnight bag ☺️ I agree keeping busy is important when I’m in ‘implosion’ mode - luckily I’ve got a busy week approaching xx ... View more

Thank you Jan, you’re absolutely spot on when you say our ‘safe world’ has gone and I definitely am grieving for my former good health 😢 My beautiful grandchildren are adorable and make me smile & my grownup children are wonderful. I know I’ve got a lot to be grateful for. Im still working and that occupies a lot of my time and I’ve got good friends, but living alone gives me time to venture into books & Google 🙈 Ive definitely learnt the hard way! Surgery is looming and hopefully I’ll get some good news about lymph nodes 🙏🏻 Once again - thank you SO much! Xx ... View more

Thank you Shi, I really appreciate your reply 💖 Today is a wobbly day & Im feeling tearful - lots going on as well, but I haven’t helped myself at all by Googling and setting my brain firing off in all directions! Really daft of me as I’ve been trotting along ok up to now..... Im sure everyone has wobbly days and I know there will be a few more to come, but how I want this all to be over and sorted! 🙏🏻 Xx ... View more