I am starting to believe I am expecting too much.. I went to have my lump excision done under local with uss guidance today and the hospital let me leave in tears!!.. nobody took any interest or time to try to help me, to understand me, to make effort to make it better..it was all so confusing and disappointing, that as a nurse I cannot comprehend .. no one gave me any compassion or dignity and I am just so heart broken now .. it was rushed as they were running late and nurses wanted to go home..in 15years I been a nurse I never ignored my patient tears.. I am thinking of those who have no background knoweledge who don't know the system ..how scary for you. I will get over this but for now I am broken. I seen a doctor last week who said she will book me for this pioneering excision of my lump using local anaesthetic and uss.. I was happy less waiting time & less complication, to be told today that they only taking another biopsy.. bigger piece as pathologist couldn't work out my previous sample...after raising my concerns the doctor took as much as she could (but I don't know how much) and placed marker inside. I was ok with all that I understood all, and was happy utill I got to the nurse post mammogram, who said "I will put a dressing on", she said that twice..so I was expecting a dressing ..to my surprise she pulled out a bandaged (one roll) and attempted to bandage my size 32G breast.. well half of them hung out deformed..then she patronised me saying don't worry it,s not bad.. I stressed to her the fact my t-shirt is "thin & see through type" and I am getting on a public transport in rush hour.. no compassion no dignity, she brushed me off and send me away in tears.. 5 nurses/hospital staff seen me crying my eyes out, none stoped and asked. I am fuming now hours later..but I cried all way home (2xundeground trains) I must be ecpecting too much.. last week I was told "why you panicking you don't have cancer yet" to today "dont worry its not that bad" when I felt half of my chest hanging out for everyone to see.. I just hope my biopsy/excision comes back negative and that I will never again have to put my foot through that Trust doors.
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