Hi all, I'm new to the forum but feeling the need for some support. I'm 43 I had my yearly screening mammogram on Monday of this week and an architectural distortion was spotted. I went for my diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound yesterday and was told that a mass was found under the distortion that was concerning. I was sent for a biopsy, scheduled for tomorrow, and get my results next Wednesday. I have been diagnosed with anxiety, specifically health anxiety, and have a real fear of breast cancer due to some weird breast changes during and right after my first and only twin pregnancy 6 years ago. So basically, I am facing my worst nightmare right now and I'm so so scared. I have reached out to family and friends who can help, my husband is very supportive, and I am selectively looking at resources on the internet (like forums) but nothing seems to be helping with my anxiety right now. I can't stop crying and shaking, and I'm unable to eat and sleep. I feel awful. I have 6 year old twins who need me, so I am trying so hard to compartmentalize all this and stay positive. But I'm not doing a good job. I look at them and can't help but go to dark places. I have called my primary care to request some anxiety meds to get through till Wednesday and I'm waiting for a call back. I'm just looking for some support for those who are going through this or have gone through this. Biopsy is tomorrow and I'm not even feeling too nervous about this. It's just the wait and the what-if's that causes a deep pit in my stomach. Thanks for reading. Emily
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