Hello everyone,
So glad to catch up with you all, feels like long lost friends although I'm so sorry to hear lots of you are having such a crap time and still having treatment.
In a terrible way I was heartened to hear that people are having a tough emotional time cause I was starting to think it was just me.
I've had no treatment for 4 months now, am back to work 4 days a week and I feel like sh*t!
I'm tired, weepy, angry, impatient, disinterested in work and all my body still aches. But I haven't been through half what you all have.
Everyone thinks its all over and I just pick up my life where it left off except I can't. My partner thinks I should just get a grip and I'm really scared I won't be able to do my job properly and end up working part time amd losing my post.
Its been a year since I was diagnosed, haven't seen anyone medical since July and its a very lonely place. Spoke to someone at a meeting today who said it took her 2 years to get over chemo - how do I cope with timescales like that?
Sorry this is a major moan but I know you guys are the only people who will understand - how do I get my family and work colleagues to understand without sounding like a moaning minny or do myself out of a job?
It feels like the cancer is an irrelevance, its the disabling effects of the treatment that screw you - not even worried about the cancer coming back because I'm so bothered about just getting though the day.
Massive hugs to everyone and wishing you all cheerier, more positive times, Erica xxxx
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