Seem to be stuck in a cycle of "what if?"
Had mastectomy October and just had 5th chemo (EC and Tax), Due to have rads April and still need to have 16 more Herceptin as HER2 pos.
I just keep going over in mind about secondaries......so much so I can't seem to plan anything, don't want to look further than next day.
It doesn't help that 15 year old is really being difficult at school, hiding , been under CAMHS for self harm (before I was diagnosed) but now discharged etc which is a shame as she is clever and beautiful and has so much potential.
I just want my life back and find I am crying a lot 😞
People don't really "see" me just the "brave" face I put on .
Rant over, I'm sure it'll pass but just not happy with situaion.
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