Hi girls
Amber, how frustrating to have to wait longer for commencing rads. Have you started now ? How are you finding it?
Jo, so sorry the post-treatment blues hit you .... are you able to get some counselling or support over the phone from here or McMillan ? Concerning rads, I was told that because I have chemo before surgery, rads always follow. And I was told that it prevents 25% of recurrences even though there are increased long term risks. If I heard correctly the doctor told me that long term it increases the chance of cancer by 5%, which is not small. So I guess they always have to balance the pros with the cons for every case.
I am doing fine, I had another MRI scan of spine and head last week because of a stiff neck and it came back fine. They said, however, that there some pictures that they don't understand in some of the pictures lower down along my spine. They said that it doesn't look like cancer and they are not there in all the pictures and said it might be an artifact of the machine. So I don't to do anything for now but probably they will give me another scan in two months time, just to make sure. So I feel I can never put an end to this story, and I guess that the nature of this illness. It will never be behind me. I am trying to accept this as part of the baggage that I will have to carry with me for the rest of my life as the price to pay for living much longer than I would have lived without the treatment. I am only 42 and have bad hot flushes, insomnia, pain in my joints from the tamoxifen, physical disfigurement, no more ovaries, and I generally feel 20 years older than I am. And I have some permanent anxiety about the future of me and my family. I am trying to digest all this a little at a time - not easy.
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