Hello Paula
I had exactly the same surgery as you on Jan 7th. I too was very healthy and had a hectic lifestyle pre diagnosis; I just cannot come to terms with how my life has been turned upside down.
I recovered really well from the surgery and I think was slightly euphoric initially as the terrible fear of the surgery had gone.
However hearing I would need 8 x chemo, rads and full node removal then completion of reconstruction ie approx 12 months + of treatment has really taken its toll on me. I find tears rolling down my cheeks without warning and cry at the slightest problem - I just can't cope with anything.
My bcn said it was good to cry - what has happened is very traumatic and life changing and if you hold it in you will really suffer later. I read a great quote on this site that has helped me it went something like ,'Every tear that falls, a little bit of hurt falls with it.'
I did talk to my GP re taking something to help me cope, although normally I am anti-drugs, but he was reluctant as he didn't want me to become addicted to anti-depressants as I had enough on my plate but to go and see him if things get worse.
It's very early days for us and hopefully things will get better. I must say since I started chemo 3 weeks ago I haven't been quite so weepy - perhaps because I feel I'm taking steps to erradicate this horror that has changed my life so drammatically
Love & hugs xx
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