Hi Gaynor
I too was on Zoladex for a few months then because my Aunt had ovarian ca I thought that it was best that I have them out which I did about 4 months after finishing chemo, and I dont regret it.
People mentioned that because it takes you straight into the change it was bad, but I havent found that. I was going to get the symptoms anyway so at least I have the peace of mind of not worrying about my ovaries and then I was put on Arimidex which I have been on ever since - 6 1/2 years
With regard to wanting to know when things get better, my thoughts are that it takes at least 2 years before you start to get little moments when you have some peace away from ca thoughts. It does get easier please believe me, but there has to be a healing time and I found that you have to work at it.
2 years after my treatment I asked myself what really makes me tick and it shocked to me to think that I didnt know, so thats what I did. I have always loved animals and my children had grown up so I started to walk, because I felt it was my mind that needed to heal. The body automatically comes back but the mind takes a lot, lot longer especially after what we have all been through.
So now I go walking with my three Lancashire Heelers and I go miles, I sing, take my flask and some food on a long walk and even if I am stressed going into the walk, I always come home smiling and at peace!
So perhaps you could use this time to think about yourself, and I do know that there is a medical paper somewhere that was posted many years ago on this site, I think that it was called 'What Next' I found it very helpful.
Just be very very kind to yourself, try to move forward in tinysteps, you will get some good days and some bad, but maybe we would have had some good/bad days even without the ca?
You could always speak to your GP to see if he could help, I did think of this myself during tough times but decided against.
Much love
Debbie :)) x
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