It's very kind of you to post. When we went back, I was told that both lumps were small cancers. They are both about 0.5 cm, and I was told that they are both grade 1. The ultrasound did not show any obvious problem with my lymph glands. The surgeon said that I would need to have radiotherapy and Tamoxifen after they have been removed. He said that the removal would be a bit more complicated than he hoped; because the tumours are 4cm apart, and he will take a 1cm margin away around the tumours, he was concerned that there might not be enough tissue left inbetween to maintain a reasonable shape, and that a mastectomy might be a better option. We met the breast care nurse on Tuesday to talk through the options, and it left me feeling completely devastated. I think I probably asked too many questions, and although she was very kind, she was very matter of fact and didn't pull any punches. Like everyone else, I'm finding it very hard to come to terms with.
I'm scheduled for surgery on the 13th, but at this stage I don't know what will be done. I've got an MRI scan on Sunday, and then on Thursday will meet the plastic surgeon and the surgeon I've already seen to decide on whether I will have preservative surgery or a mastectomy. Whatever happens, I think I will have the sentinel node removed on the 13th, and if it's feasible to have the lumpectomy, that will be done that day. If not, I'll be booked in for the mastectomy, probably just before Xmas, but this has to be done at St Thomas' rather than Kings.
To be honest, I'm terrified - of the operation, the pain, and most of all that it could have spread. I've been reading about The Haven, a breast cancer support organisation, and I'm going on their introduction day on Tuesday, whichi I hope might help. I broke the news to my Mum last week, and she was devastated, particularly having lost my brother so recently. She only had her cataract surgery on Monday, and is still trying to adjust to her new lens as well as coming to terms with this. My daughter is home from university next weekend, so we will have to tell her the news then - I didn't feel it was something I should tell her over the phone.
Sorry for the long post - it's hard to stop once I get going!
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