Hi
This is my first post but I looked on here when the doc referred me to the breast clinic and read a couple of posts on the Waiting for Results section but it wasn't good news and just made me feel worse so I stopped reading and tried to keep busy and think of something else (sorry!). So, I'm really just posting for the benefit of anyone else that is waiting for results or for your appointment at the breast clinic - and to say that sometime you get good news!
Three generations of my family on my mothers side have had breast cancer including my mother - several members of one family got it including one male. About a month ago I found a lump and went to see the doc who referred me to the breast clinic. He was reassuring and said the referral was really just cos he wanted to get it checked due to the family history. Two weeks later I went to the appointment and felt pretty positive about it. I was worried but deep down thought I would be told everything was fine. Had mammogram and could tell something had shown up, had ultrasound, then biopsy. Now I'm scared. Memories of the day my mum had her biopsy and results are still painful.
I coped pretty well with the week's wait but this morning I was a wreck. Hospital phoned and asked me to come an hour earlier which felt ominious. But thankfully I got the all clear! Didnt feel jubilant as I expected, or even massively relieved. In fact I sobbed uncontrollably as soon as I left the doc's office all the way out of the hospital. Anyone watching would have thought I'd just had bad news. Think it was just all the pressure of pretending and trying hard to be "ok" for this last couple of weeks.
The clinic was absolutely brilliant and very organised. The staff were caring and efficient at the same time - doctors and nursers. Very impressed with all of that and things have improved a lot since my mum's time. She was diagnosed at age 46, then maestectomy and chemo followed by a full recovery 17 years now - so more good news.
Didn't mean to write such a big story but I hope this reassures even one person. If you're waiting for results what worked for me was hardly telling anyone (so I didnt have to talk about it), going away for a weekend, keeping very busy and getting support from two brilliant people.
Good luck to you and I hope you get good news too. Even if you don't - knowing about it means you can deal with it and start to get it sorted. Be good to yourself in the meantime xxx
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