oh goodness! this could almost have been me writing this last year. i'm sorry you find yourself here, but you are not alone. your feelings you are describing are all normal. it really is a scary time.
i was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma last march, 2009. i was 33, newly married and was breastfeeding my 6 month old baby boy. like you i believed my lump was milk related, so when the consultant said 'cancer' the floor fell out of my world. i remember feeling angry too, as you do 'why me?!!' . i have run marathons, i'm slim, eat well, non smoker etc. etc. and i felt cheated. i worried so much for my family and the future. i was convinced i was going to die imminently!!
a cancer diagnosis really is such a huge shock and it takes time to adjust to it, just give yourself time. the women here are fabulously supportive so you will find this forum a great place to let off steam and ask any questions.
good luck tonight with your surgeon. ask as many questions as you want.... it takes time to learn all the science bits! you sound like you have a fire in your belly to get on with treatment now and that will help you through it.
this time last year (i was diagnosed 26-03-09) i was facing chemo, surgery, and radiotherapy. i've done it (and my hair is growing back thicker than before!). it's a hard battle, but you can do it, and the women here will help you on your way. good luck, thinking of you. xxxx
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