hey fellow pink ladies.
i just felt like i needed ro chat,and no one was home. Partner gone to work, his children who live with him, 2 girls are at their moms for half term, and im home alone with the puppy.
ive been doing really well, but sometimes i feel myself waking up knowing in about half hour ill have a major cry. it annoys me, why?? i dont know, i knwo its natural and better out than in, but to me i feel like im letting it all get to me, and thats week and not beng in control.
my mom was diagnosed with bc last xmas, so ive been extra para about my boobie, 3 months ago found a lump, doc and consultnat thought was nothing, turned out to be 21mm DCIS, 4 weeks ago lumpectomy all clear margins, 6 nodes taken, all clear, weekly orgestreon postive, and her-2 negative. im 41, and have no children of my own. 6 x FEC and 15 rads and 5 years tamox to folow, awaiting a date still!!!
i think its the waiting. my life isnt my life anymore, well not the one i know it to be, and it wont be for a very long time. maybe it will never be agaon. im a really postive person, but hen i get these upsets i struggle, and i havent even started the journey yet.
i read the ade edmonson article at the weekend and its really scared me. plus im scared of how people will view mw with no hair.
Iwish i could feel like me again. 😞
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