On the 20th August 2012 I was diagnosed with breast cancer aged 36. I do have a strong family history - but all over the age of 50, and I have had lumps before which turned out to be cysts - so I hadn't expected the diagnosis at all! I am a single Mum as my marriage had broken down in 2010, and was living in England so I had to move back to N Ireland and in with my parents for support during treatment, and I had to sell my home as my sick pay would run out before treatment finished. I am a dancer and after surgery was unable to do this for months(still can't much because of pain). Cancer changed everything! Then of course there was the hair loss, mastectomy, pains, nausea, depression.... For a long time if felt like I couldn't come through this - but I did. Then in July 2013 I found a lump in my neck and I thought that it was back, thankfully it wasn't. My CT scan came back all clear, I got the results on the eve of the anniversary of my diagnosis. Relief doesn't come close to describing what I felt. Surprisingly I didn't feel like celebrating - I just cried and then got some much-needed sleep. I now feel like I am starting to get back on my feet. I've got a new apartment which I have done up, and I am looking to the future with a new zest for life and a new perspective. I still have to have another mastectomy and reconstruction, and I have to take tamoxifen - but I feel like I've done it - I am now a survivor. That doesn't mean I wont still panic with every lump, bump or test BUT for now I am winning. I am so grateful to all my family and friends who helped me through, and I am grateful for the new friends and support groups I have met along the way. What I'm trying to say is - if you have just been diagnosed or are going through treatment - it will come to an end and life will go on. There is light at the end of the tunnel - no matter how far away it might seem xxx
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