Hi Badjaffa, I felt dreadful going to work after finding a lump. When I was DX, I told a few colleagues because they kept wondering where I kept going off to in work hours (GP), (Hospital appts)ever since then they kept badgering me as who they can tell, hate being the subject of office gossip! I have been on leave since my last op (2nd WLE) and am due back in the office on Monday and absolutely dreading it because half the office knows. My boss (male) was uncomfortable with my dx, but once I was back after my 1st WLE the lump was out, as far he was concerned I would be back to normal. I am now waiting for my ONC appointment and will be off again for a much longer period. I used to love going to work, never took time off ill. Going to work brings it back to me how much I have changed since finding that bl**dy lump in May. Physically I have been surprisingly well even after 2 x WLE's and 1 SNB. The sleepless nights made me tired at work, and anxiety affected me mentally and I lost focus at work because it requires attention to detail. I don't feel too bad now, I have good days and bad. When first DX I was perscribed anti depressants from my GP, but have not taken them because they would not have made any difference for at least a month and I didn't want anything to interfere with my treatment. I have supportive family, and some good friends. However, nobody really understands what your going through unless they have been through it themselves. Once you have your lumpectomy you will be able to get more rest and feel less pressured to carry on as normal. Kathy x
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