Breast Cancer Now Forum

Hi gardenparty ^_^ Just to add my 2 penny's worth. It has been almost a year since I had the mastectomy and I am still a little sore if I lie on that side. It wakes me up if I turn from my good side. I will be mentioning it when I go for my 1st check-up but as it's not too painful, I'm in no hurry. It seems to me you are suffering quite a lot more than I as it's not so bad for me to need painkillers. I'm sure your mind will be put to rest on the 4th. Some of us take longer to heal than others, I guess. Good luck with the outcome and hope they can sort the pain for you. Hello also to you all you flutter-bys. It's 2 am and have not been able to sleep hence popping on here and having a read through. A Q I would like to ask is how on earth do they take a mammogram xray when there is nothing there to flop on the slab??? I have a big lump of fat that the surgeon left me with which is big enough to plop on but not interesting to them...lol. I try to imagine how they are going to squeeze what I have left, flat :0 Now, if they were to use that lump of fat for re con surgery, it could be the deciding factor to go ahead with it....I hate it!!! I don't know why he left it on unless it's purpose was for that particular reason?! Hope you are all enjoying your sleep, especially gardenparty. I'm going back to bed to try and sleep again. Hugs to all. xxxx ... View more

Good day to you all ^_^ Thank you again for your words of support. Had a good day yesterday. Spoke to my friend about the inkling that I have a secondary somewhere around my body. Have not mentioned this to my family as I know they would really be upset but getting it off my chest has done the trick a little. I was so adamant after surgery it was all gone. I'm sure this is a normal reaction and I have too much time on my hands to dwell on this subject. I know what I need to to do to kick me out of this...just waiting for that energy to return so I can do it....it will come, I'm sure. What a coincidence that you call us flutterby's. When in the deep throws of FEC, having a real bad time and felt that IT would get me before the C, I ordered off the internet a bunch of solar butterflies that flapped when the sun was on them, and gave one to all my friends and family...just in case ...it seemed an appropriate parting gift at the time...lol. Have promised myself one too. I have 10 weeks to get myself match fit as 4 of us old girls go on holiday to Spain. I don't mind too much if I can't include myself in their antics...they can just leave me at a bar somewhere; I can while away the world and people watch. I, too, have a big decision to make. In August I see the surgeon who, if all is good, will be offering me re constructive surgery. At 60, I,m not too sure about it. I have stopped smoking and gone on to the electronic ciggy as I know he won't do it if I'm smoking. The thought of a seven hour op and the recuperation time puts me off quite a lot but I'm sure if I go ahead, my self image would be much improved. I'm sure most of us go through this though process, or something similar. I think it's something that nobody can advise on? I hope you all have a good day. Mine is a lazy one thus far and I think it's going to continue. I will make sure tomorrow is different! Hugs to you all. xxxxx ... View more

Thank you Emmy and Ami for your kind and comforting words. It makes so much difference when you know there are people that really understand and can only do that having been there themselves. I keep thinking that I'm just being lazy but that is so not me. I'm sure I will snap out of it when my body is ready to...it doesn't seem to help trying to force it...lol. Yes Ami, Bobbin is the family dog. She is just over a year old and a handful but great company. If it wasn't for her I don't think I would go out at all! I fractured my back before I learnt that I had BC and I think my problem is more this than the C. All those months of inactivity whilst on chemo has made the situation worse, no exercise etc, but Bobbin makes me go out for a pull along so, thank goodness for her ^_^ A big hug to you both. xxx ... View more

Where did I go?? I, too, feel very much like I have strayed from life's path and going off into the forest. All treatment has been successful and I have the all clear...I should be estatic!!! Why aren't I?? Maybe deep down I feel that there is something lurking ready to raise it's ugly head when I'm feeling confident and over it all. I have my first check-up end of May....maybe if they still say "all clear" then, I may believe it. This is sooooo not me to feel negative. Normally, I am gregarious with a love of life. Instead, I hide indoors, many a day in my jimjams. I'm on anti-depressants...maybe I need a stronger dose?!!! I had 2 weeks of feeling really well and then back to normal, only to go down with a bang again. I'm gonna give myself a kick up the jacksie. Sorry to sound so glum 😞 ... View more

Maybe it was this article katytc. Nothing new there then!! http://www.goodhousekeeping.com/health/diseases/outsmart-breast-cancer?click=main_sr ... View more