Hi Linda , I know exactly how you feel.If I hear one more person say ' you can put it all behind you now and get back to normal' ,I'll either deck them or go into meltdown! It's the same when I go out with wig and makeup they'll say 'You look so well!' I know it's hard for some to understand but it is frustrating as we don't know if we are cured or not. I've had some really down days recently ,it's been a month since treatment finished , having to face going back to work with people I've heard nothing from since I left in Feb and losing my mum 2 months ago ,I just want to pack it all in and go and live in France ! Hope your scan goes well and chin up (in my case since the weight gain it's 'chins'lol!) AS long as we have an outlet for our fears and frustrations we'll get through one way or another. That reminds me of a song,no not Blondie,but Benny Hill... Now if you're feeling miserable, if you're feeling blue, Here's a little ditty that'll help to pull you through, All the clouds will disappear, the grey skies turn to blue: Just stick your finger in your ear and go ting-a-ling-a-loo. Now suppose you've got the fell pest, the gout and goose's cough, A severe attack of hiccups and your kneecap's just dropped off, The surgeon says "We'd operate, but the anaesthetic's gone," You just look up and smile at him and say "You carry on." "I'll stick me finger in me ear and go ting-a-ling-a-loo, Me finger in me ear and go ting-a-ling-a-loo, I'll just be like Nelson at the Battle of Waterloo, I'll stick me finger in me ear and go ting-a-ling-a-loo. " love and hugs to us all xx
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