Hi Stephireed, I totally feel your pain. Your brain is bound to be mashed and just when you need to stop and take time you feel like you have to make lots of life changing decisions. I know it's totally different for everyone but for me it was helpful to read other people's stories when I was freaking out about my surgery. I was diagnosed on 4th Jan this year and had a mastectomy and immediate diep reconstruction 9 weeks ago on 28th Feb. I chose diep as I thought it gave the best chance of feeling natural and because the chances of problems/needing more surgery etc. are less if its your own tissue (as I understand it). I am really happy with my decision. I have small boobs so that might be a factor but the plastic surgeon (East Grinstead) did a good job of making it match size wise. Initially it felt very hard and lumpy but now it is much softer and eventually I can imagine it will become as floppy as it was when it was around my belly! I do feel slightly sad to have lost my nipple but it had to be done and I'm looking forward to having one tattooed later on. It was very uncomfortable for a few weeks but nothing unbearable. I found sleeping on my back very difficult but after a few nights, advised by my bc nurses, I was able to sleep on my side propped up by pillows and then it was fine. 9 weeks later I am really fine, only a little ocassional discomfort in the muscles but continuing to wear the big support knickers helps. I know you will make the decision that is right for you and whatever it is, we will all be thinking of you and sending you love xx
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