I am impressed by how much knowledge you all have about your condition. I had to look up what some of the terms meant. I know it is my fault I became an ostrich and stuck my head in the sand. I had my first mammogram in December, my only thought being, great an afternoon of work do some Xmss shopping. Week later letter asking me back as scan "unclear. Still no alarm bells ringing, I must have moved during scan and it was blurred. Total disbelief to be told they had found "something" Biopsy followed (scary) results 2 days later. Was told I had calcium deposits and would need them removed and 5 weeks of radiotherapy. Was told that I did not have cancer but to have the op just to be safe. I had my operation in a day surgery and told to come back in 10 days. My scar was bigger than I had expected and my left boob was left with a dent where the tissue had been removed. After 10 days I went back I thought to get my dressing changed only to be told quite bluntly that all the pre-cancerous cells could not be removed without disfiguring my boob further so I was told I needed a mastectomy! Like you I didn't want to tell anyone except my husband,daughters and family. My poor Mother still can't understand why a MX with no cancer! My work are quite understanding but I heard one girl mutter "off work for 8 weeks and she doesn't even have cancer" I do feel a bit of a phoney when I read some of your stories. I used to dread the phone ringing in case it was someone asking how I was. Course I am going to say I am fine thanks, no one wants to listen to a moaning Minnie . I have had people say how much better they feel after speaking to me as I am so positive. Huh they should see me some mornings when I do 't even want to get out of my bed. I find myself staring longingly at my lovely bras and bikinis I had bought for my summer hols. They don't fit anymore, Will go back to my work in 2 weeks and go back to being the joker and smiling when told how lucky I am to have caught the cancer so early. Grr Grr
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