Thank you for the replies. I have downloaded the piece you posted, thank you sameoldme, and wil give it a read (its very long! 🙂 ). I'm glad to hear your wobbles are rare these days. I have looked at the Moving Forward courses, Riversidedawn, but I'm not very good at going places by myself, especially as the nearest one to me is still quite a way away. I hope your recon and rads went well and you are doing ok. I think a big part of the problem is that I'm not skipping anywhere at the moment, Feistyflora. I have lymphedema from my surgery that can't be treated at the moment because I have a blood clot from my picc line that won't go, even after 8 months of heparin. And I am waiting to see a cardiologist as my heart has been enlarged and causing problems since the chemo. On top of that I have quite bad side effects from exemestane - very frequent hot flushes are making my palpitaions worse, my joints are painful and swollen and I don't sleep more than 3 hours a night. I have been treated at 4 different hospitals (cardiologist will make 5), and seen a total of 7 breast surgeons and 6 oncologists. Not exactly continuity of care. I think you are right and I'm just exhausted and probably expecting too much too soon. All the times I was at the hospital I saw so many really poorly people and I always felt like a fraud, like I wasn't really sick like them. I don't think I know if I'm coming or going at the moment. Thank you again for your replies. Big hugs. Emxx
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