Hello ladies, a major apology to you all for not posting for absolutely ages.for the last few months i feel that i have totally lost myself. After the second trial cycle my scan showd that the target area they were watching (didnt even thionk to ask where) had grown bt not enough to be classed as progression. However it was obvious that it was doing nothing to help my skin as it had erupted massively,.With this in mind and the fact that i felt so ill, it was decided to stop the trial. It was god not to feel so poorly bt so disappointing to know a real hope gone again and all that is left is a revisit to a standard chemo. Apparently tere are no current trials of any se to me. I am in a real dark place...i dont really see the point of it all. I am not interested in anything and if i was i am in too much pain to do it. I am now on slow release morphine with oral top-up bt its not really helping. I started the chemo yesterday and have another scan on Wednesday so the next few weeks will be very stressful. Anyway,f i dont post for a while it is because of how i'm feling at the moment, it doesnt mean i dont think about you, as i do, all the time. Take care, lots of love. xx
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