Hi wavylocks, sounds like you've had a really tough couple of days and as all of us know, a horrible week of waiting to come. Be prepared for the roller coaster of emotions that you have mentioned - from keeping busy, focused, strong and positive to the worry, lows and tears. I described it as a "can't get out of a wave pool" feeling. Waiting is horrible, its like everything goes on a false hold. I think you've been left in a very very difficult position and it won't be the easiest of times until you go back. When I went, amongst lots I didn't like about the hospital, they at least were very vocal and honest at every single stage. They said it didn't look good on the mammograms, they got me back in for magnifying ones and again I got the "oh it doesn't look good", "do you have anyone with you" but when I asked if it looked like cancer they bluntly said "yes, it looks suspicious". Then at the ultrasound when I could see black circles and asked again, they were very honest and blunt and repeated they were concerned, it looked suspicious etc etc but when they did the biopsies, drained cysts and extracted/evacuated two lumps they then have me a very clear verbal opinion with %'s. For me, despite the negativity all the way I have a visual 90% that it is not cancer (I'm taking this as very very good news although dont get final results til this week). I really appreciated their bluntness and honesty (and believe even if it was bad news they would also have told me straight) and its helped me get my head straight and deal with this week. The only advice I can give is to do what feels right; if you have questions definitely phone the helpline (even if its only to ramble or wonder out loud) or speak to whoever you feel most comfortable with. Even you GP might be helpful if you need it. Hope the week goes quickly for you and things go well. Will be thinking of you. Lorrainne. X
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