hi that what i have just been told i have. went for a mamogram on 26th last month. have a very large lump in left boob grade 3 and cancer has gone to my left lymph nodes. I am having double masectomy on 28th of this month followed by chemo along side a cocktail of other drugs then radi therapy. I only had to have a single masectomy but mentally that would be no good for me so the consultant has agreed to a double masectomy. I am not afraid ot the operation or of losing my boobs, I am terrified of the chemo and cocktails but it is all necessary in order to stay alive. I have an 18 year old daughter and we have no one else, it will be a long haul and of course I have to pay the mortgage and bills so its one heck of a struggle, I stoped working on the 26th last month due to being devistated. However; I have changed now I am like ice one minute and a blubbering mess the next but I have to survive for my daughters sake and I have no intension of this vile cancer accommodating my system for much longer. Reconstruction is an eye opener and although I have discussed this with my wounderful cancer nurse I will leave the decision for the reconstruction surgen to advise me in a years time. God dont I sound as if im a brave one but honestly i am not, i am scared and terrified of the unknown but bring it on, the sooner the better. xx
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