Breast Cancer Now Forum

Just got my appointment dates for picc line insert and chemo start. First session on 24 feb So scared. ... View more

Hi Janey, I don't fully understand what all of the above means and so I won't comment on that. What I will say is that your reaction sounds very like my own. I'm also having chemo before surgery (starting week after next) and I'm terrified but I've found this forum to be very helpful. Sending hugs x ... View more

Thanks JETS and Herewego, having a wobbly day after a positive day yesterday. Guess this is just the roller coaster and I need to hang on in there. It will feel good to start treatment even though it terrifies me too. Today's worry is that I still have a chest infection and that will delay treatment but doc said she couldn't hear a wheeze. I think I'm becoming a paranoid wreck. ... View more

So met onc yesterday and chemo starts week after next. I'm so scared of side effects and how I'm going to cope with three small children. Anyone managed with kids on chemo? ... View more

Hi Lindyloulou, sorry to hear you are in this club too. It sounds like we are experiencing the same emotions and reaction to it, which I suppose is comforting in an odd sort of way. I'm trying to keep busy and be around people as much as possible as this seems to help. At times I'm crippled with worry and I'm also hating the worry I'm causing my poor hubby. Keep telling myself that I'm strong and otherwise healthy so that's in my favour. Chin up and loads of hugs xxx ... View more

Thanks Hazel and Chez, I'm seeing oncologist tomorrow to discuss the plan for chemo. I'm scared of chemo but also want it to start as lump feels enormous and I'm sure it's growing. I have a dull ache in my chest tonight and I don't know if this is caused by my severe anxiety or if it's something else. I'm terrified it is something else but another part of my brain telling me not to be silly. I'm actually sleeping ok (when my babies let me) just not really functioning during the day as I'm crippled with worry. I hate being alone (without adult company) but I'm **bleep** company at the same time. I'm feeling really let down by my mum who has barely said anything to me since I told her about my diagnosis. I'm hoping I will feel better when treatment starts even though I'm so scared of side effects. It's good to hear that it is bearable from people on here. Thanks again for reading me xxx ... View more

It wasn't as bad as I feared. Lump in left breast just a cyst so just the right to worry about. Going for chemo first and will start in a couple of weeks. I swear I can feel lump getting bigger by the day 😞 I know I just have to get used to this but every fibre in my body is telling me to run away screaming 😞 my poor babies are having to give up breastmilk and that's not going well and so I feel like I'm messing up their lives too. Sorry to moan x ... View more

I'm waiting to go in for my next appointment. I feel so sick with nerves. Please tell me this gets easier to cope with. Want to run and scream 😞 ... View more

Thanks everyone, somehow I've managed to get through the weekend without a complete breakdown. I do feel panicky all the time and I'm finding it difficult to eat or sleep. I'm also getting paranoid about every ache or gripe in my body. But your words of wisdom and encouragement do help so thank you again x ... View more

Thanks all for your replies. I went to see my GP today and I am feeling a lot better about things tonight. I will try to always take someone to appointments but I have three small children and we don't have any family nearby so this makes things difficult to arrange. Have sorted childcare for one of next week's appointments thanks to some fab friends. I'm starting to make a list of questions too. Still scared and confused but I'm not crying all the time now do that has to be a good thing. Thanks again for making me feel so welcome and for taking the time to offer your advice xxxx ... View more

Thanks Chez, my nurse rang me this morning and explained a bit more to me said she guessed I hadn't taken much in at the meeting. I've got an invasive ductal carcinoma and she said they thought it had been caught early and not in my lymph nodes as far as they can tell. She said they are going to treat me with surgery, chemo and radio because of my age but will need to decide about order of treatment. I'm still so confused but I do feel a little better now I have a name for it! Does that make sense? Seeing doctors again next week, These boards are so supportive, so many lovely people around. Thanks again for replying xx ... View more