I was diagnosed in 2005 aged 39 with a 3 year old son. A lumpectomy, chemotherapy, radiotherapy and 5 years of tamoxifen followed, Thank God I am now phyusically fine but I am en emotional mess. Since coming off treatment my dear mum spent weeks in hoptial died and my dear dad spent many months in hospital before dying last October. As an only child I coped with the beareavements and associated practical issues alone. The last ten years have been awful and I just want to hide away and cry all of the time. I was a slim size 12 when diagnosed but am now a size 18-20. This was all exacerated by my in-laws stating that I should not have had chemetherapy because "of inconvenience to the family". My son is now a sulkly 13 year old and my husband has no emotional understanding whatsoever. How can I get some self esteem back and start to feel near normal again?
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