Morning Ladies,
Hope everyone is doing as well as can be?
I have been checking in on the forum over the past few weeks,But have been a bit quiet as I’m not really sure how to describe how I feel at the moment…
I think I feel worse in myself both physically and mentally than I did whilst I was undergoing active chemo!Which is really hard to try and explain,Especially to some people who assume now chemo has finished that I would be ‘back to normal’ 
I also had a massive wobble last week about my upcoming surgery next week,And was questioning if I had made the right choice and very nearly rang the surgeon’s secretary to say I had changed my mind!!!-I think the telephone call with the oncologist has been playing on my mind (with the possibility of still having to have radiotherapy and Kadcyla post Mastectomy),I did snap out of it after about an hour or so and am sticking with my original plan.
I also got put onto halfpay at work without being informed beforehand-Which massively goes against the sickness policies in place,Which was added stress that I really didnt need!!!
On a happier note,My eldest daughter turns 18 tomorrow(I do not feel adulty enough to have an 18 year old!!
) and we have a lovely party planned for her at the end of the week ,Which will be something to look forward to before the surgery scaries set in again for Thurs next week-Which also happens to be A-Level results day!!!
Sending lots of love and positive vibes 