@misha - I hope you got some rest too. I feel exhausted this evening, but know I will struggle to sleep too. I worry I will never rest easy again tbh. The “i have cancer” feels like a brick landing on my face every morning and it’s exhausting. The weight of the devastation feels overwhelmingly heavy.
Do you still have friends staying with you? I can’t stand catching my reflection anymore either. My fitness has gone out the window & I’ve lost motivation as I was very fit before and feel it’s meant nothing after all so think f**k it all a lot.
@rainbowbrite10 - nice to read you too. I am similar post chemotherapy. No idea when it starts to ease?! Lots of my “support network” have disappeared now too as the perception is that chemo is over so I’m fine now. I’m meant to be having a mastectomy too but am burying my head in the sand. Going to work and avoiding appointments. I’m not handling any of it at all & living alone / being single(ish) isn’t really helping as I can continue to do this. Have you seen / spoken to a psychologist at all?
Met a friend recently and she wanted to stop in h&m on route home to look at bras. I felt like my stomach was going to fall out.
With love,
Sophie x