I still remember the feeling of the simple things like compression stockings and thoughtless reactions of nearest ans dearest!
At Christmas 2003/4 I was going through the diagnosis stage. I had never had a days illness, let alone an operation. Everything was very scary. My main worry was having an anaesthetic and waking up after.
All was well in the end though. This latest diagnosis was a walk in the park compared to the first time. So I totally understand your worries. Just remember you have lots of support here and no matter how small your worry or how thoughtless folk around you are, you have us.
Xxx