Sorry to hear of your woes made worse by your partner’s ill health. A double whammy totally unfair. I fear cancer is a very frightening condition and I felt I had gone through a door into another world after my diagnosis. Not helped by being left for ages so all the other patients had left before I was told.
I got the distinct feeling of being a leper! That’s why chatting to us survivors may help. I have had breast cancer twice in 2003 and 2022 and although I loathe operations I have now survived quite a few. Now at age 70 I have decided I might as well enjoy bad health as much as I can. I do loads of exercise, lug compost bags around the garden and fall down steps at the recycling centre.
Cancer is not going to get me but maybe a broken skull will.
Seagulls