Hi, I had a mascectomy on the 1st December 2006. Since then I had 3 fec and three taxotere followed by rads and now on herceptin. Has anyone got watery eyes. Mine went very bad on tax but seemed to get better. This last couple of weeks I have noticed that my eyes are always watering. Also I still fell numb around the mascectomy site. I get a few stabing pains now and then and the area below my armpit is puffy. To top it all I read a couple of pages of bc books at the library and scared myself to death, caught sight of myself in the mirror at my ugly fuzzy head and a weariness came over me and tears ran down my face. I haven’t cried for months and months. There seems to be such a lot of posts lately from ladies who have had a reoccourance or mets and it feels overwhelming. I feel it’s not a case of if but when… Sorry had to get all this out no-one to say this to love Eileen
Eileen bless you, i am sure you will receive many replies from people on this site who understand exactly how you feel, we all have days like you are having. It is so natural and understandable. Please phone one of the lovely ladies on the helpline, i did just that yesterday when i had an overwhelming day and it really does help.
Much love to you
Suzzanne
Hi Eileen
I just wanted to say that you are not alone in the way you are feeling at the moment, these are normal feelings after diagnosis, during treatment and beyond and many people contact us at Breast Cancer Care, many of whom have said they have felt very down at some point and with help and support, do begin to start feeling better in time.
Please remember that you are very welcome to contact our helpline for confidential support or just a listening ear.
The helpline number is 0808 800 6000 and is open Monday to Friday 9am-5pm and Saturday 9am-2pm.
I am sure you will also receive many welcome hugs and support from your friends on the forums.
Kind regards
Louise
Hi Eileen,
if it helps at all I finished my rads way back in March 2007 and I am still experiencing stabbing pains on that side. It went away about 3 weeks ago and seems to have started up again since I went for a mammogram on New Years Eve.
I had a very difficult time on the Taxotere/Herceptin/Tramadol combo, culminating with me getting a chemo burn after the last one and ending up in hospital with no immunity. I had to see a plastic surgeon afterwards as they were worried my hand had been damaged, thankfully it looked worse than it was.
I had my first visit to the hairdressers since September 2006 today. My hair is white now and it’s taken 9 months to get to the needing a trim stage, but at least it’s hair. Start a new job on Tuesday too. Downside is I don’t get the mammo result until Thursday, wish it was all out of the way. I still have 5 Herceptins to go as well.
Try to hang in there it does get better - I find I get really angry at times and I just have a good rant to let it out. I accept the fact that this might come back but I try not to dwell on things. Perhaps a meditation CD would help - I plan to do mines over the weekend as I’m feeling quite edgy about next week, especially Thursday.
Hello Eileen
It’s a year for me as well - my WLE was 20th December 2006. I also had 3 x FEC and 3 x Taxotere followed by rads and Herceptin. I take Aromasin as well which gives me horrible hot flushes and sweats.
I haven’t got the watery eyes you mention but I am aware that my eyesight has changed in the last year. I still haven’t made that appointment at the optician - must do so next week.
I’ve still got stabbing pains in my affected breast and a different kind of pain under my arm. I was feeling the area under my arm this evening and I noticed how puffy it is. My head looks pretty strange - I haven’t been to the hairdresser yet and my hair will only really stand straight up - I can’t do anything else with it. So you’re not alone.
Most of all I understand the fear you describe - I think we’ve all got that. I call it ‘cancer paranoia’. I know that it may come back but I’m trying to get on with life now and to enjoy it as much as possible. The worst times for me are the night time - I’m finding it very difficult to get to sleep at the moment and having to take zopiclone every night.
Eileen I do hope you feel better soon.
Take care
Love Anthi
Thanks for your comments I feel really supported by you all, it does help me to know that you are all out there. Cherub you will be fine at work I was very nervous too but it’s as if I have never been off. Anthi you never let me down you have always reassured me with your posts. Suzanne thanks for you speedy reply take care love Eileen