Hi to all you lovely ladies and any gents who may be here as well.
I’m popping in as an old-timer, to say hello and let you all know there is hope.
Most of you probably do not know me, but I was quite a big user of the forums from 2007 onwards, when I was diagnosed with HER2+ breast cancer in June 2007. I had an aggressive 5cm tumor on/in my breast and a huge lump in my armpit (it was the armpit lump which alerted me to something being wrong). I was only in my 30s at the time. I remember everything: the whole rollercoaster ride, being terrifed, “Terrified” was the name of a thread that me, along with a few other regulars belonged to and contributed to most days. Everybody here was so supportive, and we supported each other through this journey and onwards. I also contributed to other threads during my time of using the forums.
I had chemo first, an operation, herceptin and radiotherapy. I had many hospital stays with neutropenic sepsis, had to have my port taken out as it became infected, had to come off herceptin and restart it due to my low white blood count, and then had a spectactular reaction to Herceptin on my last infusion. Not the way I wanted to finish, but all was okay. I went through reconstructive surgery to the affected side, plus a preventative mastectomy and reconstruction to the other side, and a few revisions after that thrown in!
I wanted to pop back to say hi to you all. I know that you probably don’t hear from old-timers like me that often, and I know it helped me to hear from ‘old-timers’ and hear how well they’ve been doing. So here I am, 13 years down the line, well and having moved on. I never forget what happened to me. I think about it every day. It’s not something I can forget about, but I don’t live with the terror and dread of 'what’s going to happen next." I just didn’t know if I would still be here. But here I am, and I was so determined that I would be here.
My life changed in 2011, when I met the man of my dreams, got married and became a stepmum. I am really really happily married to my soul mate. I met somebody who took me on ‘warts and all’!
So there you go lovely ladies, and any gents that may be around too. I had quite a poor prognosis, but my oncologist always told me he was considering the treatment he was giving me to be ‘curative treatment’.
Thinking of you all going through what has been thrown your way.