It’s taken me a while to build the courage to register and post.
I’d just turned 29, was on honeymoon in December and found a lump. After convincing the Doctors to refer me for biopsy and waiting for Xmas to pass, I was diagnosed with Grade 3 ER positive BC on 9th January. I was booked in for right sided masectomy on 14th February, but they found a second lump in the week before. This turned out to be grade 3 triple negative.
I had egg collection for IVF last week and had the last injections yesterday (we were just about to start a family when all this happened).
I had a CT scan yesterday, provided this comes back ok, I start chemo on 20th March. It will be 12 weekly sessions followed by 4 fortnightly sessions. Then radiotherapy, potential hormone tablets and then preventative surgery for the left side (I have the BRCA gene)
I’ve tried to be super positive this whole way through, but just now find myself in an emotional mess. I’m scared, panicked and just don’t know what to expect from the chemo. I have IBS and they have warned that chemo finds your weakness - i’m anticipating i’ll be in a bit of a mess physically, but just don’t know how to get my head into a better mindset as i feel i need to be stronger mentally for this next bit.
My husband is trying his best, but i’m conscious I don’t want to upset him by him seeing me not coping.
I suppose (after a very rambly post) I was just wondering if there were any other folks out there who could share their experience of chemo as well as any coping mechanisms?
Much Love & sorry for the essay x