I wrote a post a few weeks back about finding a lump and being in the 2nd. Well I had that appointment yesterday. I had a scan, mammogram another scan biopsy and then a fall with the doctor who have said this is very suspicious of cancer. I said is there any chance this will come back not cancer and he said it’s very unlikely!
I have non stopped cried since yesterday! I don’t know what to think or do or say. Now just to wait for biopsy results.
I’ve never been so scared in my life
Hi, how you are feeling is completely normal you will see most women on here say this is the hardest part the tests scans and waiting to hear what you’ll be doing moving forward, once you are armed with all the information and plan ahead I promise you will feel a little better, sending lots of love your way x
Hi @aimee11 I’m so sorry for what you are going through. It really is very scary. I wish there was something we could all say to make it better but what you are going through right now waiting for results really is the worst.
In a way I think it is kinder for your team to prepare you. My radiologist and doctor both said something similar to me, that it looked like something that needs treating. If you can, try to focus on that word. Treating. Treatment. If you do have breast cancer, it can be treated.
Your brain is in panic mode right now and it will be telling you all the worst case scenarios but these are not facts. It is normal to panic and worry and spend lots of time crying but please dont let yourself sit that way for too long.
When I came away from the appointment that I was told its likely to be cancer I knew I had to get busy. I needed to take control of what I could control. The doctors, nurses and scientists were busy doing their job. They were finding out all the info they needed to fix me. So what was my job? What could I do to help myself? First I tidied up my diet. I cut out all the crap. I started researching the best diet for my body, what it would need if I had to have treatment. What my body really needed was a kick ass immune system so I ate as much foods as possible to support that. I started concentrating on being hydrated. I started moving my body more, took extra yoga classes. I walked for miles. Literally, music in my headphones and marched. All of these things gave me purpose and gave me a way of trying to ease the worry and stress. I am nearly half way through being treated for breast cancer and despite the side effects I think I’m probably still the healthiest I’ve ever been because of the action I took to help myself. And because I found my cancer, which is a huge huge positive, I am cancer free. If yours is cancer, you found it! You are already winning now!
Sending you the biggest hugs 
Hi @aimee11 it does seem to be quite common these days to be told something similar at biopsy. In July 2022, when I was called back from a routine mammogram, I was lying on my side with the radiologist doing her thing and a nurse round the front, holding my hands. I told them that my mother had had a lump which turned out to be a blocked milk duct, could it be that? Oh no, came the answer, it’s cancer but the biopsy will tell us what sort. Bearing in mind I hadn’t received the recall letter and was only there because the hospital had phoned me the previous day to check whether I would attend, it was a bit of a shock to discover 24 hours after going about my sweet business that I had cancer. The nurse, however, squeezed my hands and said “don’t worry, we’re going to fix this”. Well it’s almost four years later and, so far, so good. I must admit that I like to know stuff and deal with it better than being in a “what if” situation but it’s not for everybody. You’re in the worst place at the moment, without certainty. It will get better once you know what you are facing, honestly it will. In the meantime, do you have good support around you? Speak to your GP who may be able to give you a short course of something to help you sleep. When you are ready to, see if there’s a Maggie’s centre near you where you can just drop in to let it all out. You can put your postcode in here to see where your nearest Maggie’s is https://www.maggies.org/our-centres/?postcode=W13+8EA&sort_by=sort_by_distance You can also speak to one of our nurses on 0808 800 6000 from 9.00-16.00 to answer any immediate questions. They are lovely ladies and won’t rush you. It all seems bewildering at the moment and most of the women on this forum have been where you are now but can assure you that it will get better. Big hugs
Hi @aimee11 ,
sending a big hug. The ladies @foxgem , @Tigress and @emilyxxx have sent over such lovely reassurance and advice ,so you are in a good circle of support so keep posting as you go along
I am still waiting for official results like you. But unlike you I have been given reassurance that its likely to be benign.
So I am anxious waiting but my situation is non comparable to you and I so I wont offer experience or suggestions where i dont know how it is.
But I wanted to reach out and send my love and good wishes to you anyway. It must feel really horrible and scary and totally understandable you are crying .
Hopefully they wont keep you waiting to long with results so you can be reassured by your clinical team what yur treatment plan is.
Lorix
Hi @aimee11
That happened to me years ago. I was told to bring someone to the follow-up meeting as the consultant was so sure I had BC. It did turn out to just be benign lumps.
Don’t hang your hopes on that but I just wanted you to know that sometimes the initial thoughts can be wrong.
Didn’t stop me being diagnosed 5 years ago though. Mind you, my Trust do all the tests and diagnosis in a day so no long drawn out waiting for results.
The waiting really is the worst. Fingers cross for you. But if it is BC, it’s so treatable these days and your team will work out your plan and get you sorted ASAP and with the utmost care and support.
Best wishes.
AnGELa
Hi Aimee11, I was told the same when I had my biopsy done, its very overwhelming, I was officially diagnosed on the 27th March. The first couple of weeks from the biopsy, results and then absorbing that info were the absolute worst. I consider myself quite strong, capable, independent but it absolutely floored me. Hang tight to your loved ones, cry when you need to, laugh if you can and just keep putting one foot in front of the other. I’ve never been as completely overwhelmed by emotion and fear, it was almost like a huge grief, but it does subside. I’m barely three weeks since the news, just back from an MRI and though its still a rollercoaster it does subside. This forum has been amazing for me already but I found to start with I just read little bits when I could and then tried to distract myself as much as possible. Hang in there, we’re in this together, you are not alone, sending big hugs xxxx
Hi @aimee11 , I just did my first neo-adjuvant chemotherapy on Tuesday (April 14th). Things seem OK and manageable now, with the clear plan ahead and thorough information, with supports from the oncology team. And I’m positive you’ll get here! 
Here’s my experience if it’d be any help: on Friday February 27th I went for my hospital appointment and was told the 4cm lump, which my GP thought was a benign fibroadenoma, was cancer, and had affected an lymph node. This was 2 weeks after I felt that lump in the shower in early February.
The days after were the hardest by far – I woke up with dread every morning, taking it an hour at a time, had 2-3 mega cries (literally 
) everyday, to my partner and my best friend. It was a lot but I knew I needed it, so allow yourself all heaped servings of that! I was also doomscrolling a lot so had to exercise a lot of self-discipline and even needed help from my partner to keep an eye on me and take my phone away if need be!
As the news broke, people all reached out to me and they wanted to help, so I allowed myself to accept that, to be more vulnerable than I tend to be. It was heartfelt to see how caring, kind and supportive the people I have around me. I’m very, very, very grateful for that.
I received my official diagnosis on March 10th, exactly a month after I first found it in the shower. It’s grade 3 IDC, hormone positive, likely to spread so staging unknown, so they requested a PET CT scan for me to find out. A week later it came back clear (we were overjoyed), but while we were waiting I was also pondering the aspect of living with metastatic breast cancer at age 29. Interestingly this period was less hard compared to those days before my diagnosis – simply because I had more information.
Appointment with oncologist was booked on March 27th, they couldn’t fit me in earlier, but also reassured me that it wouldn’t affect the outcome to start treatment after that date. So I started oncofertility preservation as I waited. It went surprisingly smooth, and that made a great positive impact – it made me feel the ball was rolling and I was in control. Meeting on 27th delivered the full treatment plan, with even more clarity.
Before my first chemo on April 14th, I went out to see all my friends, engaged in activities I love, went to a petting zoo and the ZSL London Zoo, did some great sparring in kendo (the martial art I practice) by which I accrued energy debt 
, listing comics I wanted to read during chemo, and going for the buzzcut! Basically, just tried to be as prepared as possible for treatment.
Now 2 days in, the supportive medication are working well and I’m doing OK. Spring is here, weather is good and I feel positive. As @foxgem said, if it’s cancer, you found it and that’s the first win that preceeds all the coming wins along the road. You got this!! And you got us too. 
Lynn