My children have been nagging me to do my christmas list, whilst writing that one I thought of this one. Anyone else have their private christmas lists sorted?
Dear Father Christmas
I think I have been a good girl this year.
For Christmas I would like
Never to have to hear the words Breast Cancer again in my medical future once this is finished
To have my back wound heal
To be able to have a bath
To be able to go back to work
To get through the rest of chemotherapy with no side effects (well its a christmas list!)
For hair (will settle happily for on top only!)
For my new boob to settle down
For a great new nipple
For a good outcome on matching the boobs up
To be able to thank all the people who’ve helped me
To be able not to be disappointed in all the people who’ve let me down
To return to my life as it was before except in future to be more able to say no, to be able ask for what I want, to stop and smell the roses
I think that i have been a good girl this year and for Christmas i would like
Not to be diagnosed with BC
For my husband to come home and be a family again.(My friends would kill me if i took him back)
For the world to live in peace and stop all this bombing and fighting - life is far to short anyway
To be happy and if i can’t have my husband please let me meet somebody nice!!
I have been good as i have not moaned ‘too’ much about all the treatment i have endured. I have put up with a lot and been hurt by friends and family members turning their back on me at a time i really needed support so to cheer me up for Christmas i would please like …
My own hair back
aches and pains gone
no more treatment
to see my children smile again and not worry about ‘mum’.
that one goes for my OH aswell.
all the pain, hurt and killing in the world stopped.
and last of all, all the ladies and men not just on this site but all going through cancer to find the strength to fight it.
No idea, the ones that have turned their back on me are the ones that i was there to help in their hours of need. which in the past have accululated to many hours.
my dilema now is do i do the same to them when this is all behind me and they need me again? ; ) X
i would love to be cured of breast cancer, but if not possible
i would like to accept whatever happens peacefully
to laugh a lot and not take life too seriously
to make time for fun,
to be a good friend to others, and be there for my loved ones
odd decorating jobs done around the house
a nice holiday.
to lose about 3 stone, without giving up the treats (no harm in dreaming!)
and for a wonder cure for any cancers out there
i would be so grateful, id leave you an extra mince pie next year.
i want to be free of anxiety
i want to trust and understand my body again
i want my OH to truly understand what his love and support has meant to me
i want a longer fuse…
But most imprtantly i want my very pregnant sister to give birth to a healthy, happy baby.
All I want for Christmas is to be able to sit down with a nice glass of champagne and not worry about it triggering off my palpitations which have started up post-chemo - Oops maybe I should ask the cardio for that tomorrow?
In that case:
A cold crisp Christmas Day so we can go for a walk without sweating buckets as it’s usually ‘unseasonably mild’
See my ‘little’ (17 & 20) girls faces’ as they undo their Santa stockings
Have a lovely family day with my Mum and dad doing all the work for me this year (bless them)
Enjoy all the food and wine (see above re cardio!)
Health and happiness to all my (true) friends, to the others - ‘whatever’
A grateful, heartfelt thanks to all my fellow sufferers on this forum who have helped me and supported me this year
And finally a New Year that is SO much better than the lost year of 2008
It would be too obvious to want my daughter back for Christmas but please can there be a major breakthrough in breast cancer research to help all the wonderful people on this site who are still with us.
Dear Sue, I was thinking of you yesterday and a friend who died very recently who had 3 children. I was surrounded by Christmas shoppers and families at the the time and for a moment I felt so removed from it all. I have bone mets and read your posts about Lisa on the Secondaries board. Words are so inadequate at times but Take Care…Belinda…x
