Hi everyone
I hope you had a lovely day yesterday Judy. Happy anniversary.
Sandy I’m so glad you got your eyes sorted out.
My mood has lifted this weekend, though it feels good having everyone home with me. My OH is feeling and looking much better too, which has helped. I enrolled the kids to help me sort out the playroom yesterday, while my OH took the dog out and despite bagging up loads to go out there is still a lot to do. I feel better for doing something on it though. I’ve been out for a good walk with the dog today today too, so my energy levels have improved again for now. My legs are still driving me daft though as they are really weak. Has anyone else noticed this? I know what you mean Sandy about feeling like you should be doing more, but I suppose it is still early days after treatment yet.
Mel how’s the wbc? Any sign of release? I hope you’re feeling OK. xx
Moira glad to hear you’re doing OK. I know what you mean about the cold ears. I’ve swapped my Chemo hat for my woolly hat 
Good morning from sunny Portugal 
Judy - Congratulations on your wedding anniversary , hope you had a lovely meal with the family.
Sandy - hope the new medication clears up your eye problems
Mel - I hope the WBC is on the up and the ONC lets you go home soon.
I’ m having a great time, yesterday we had a lovely walk /stroll to and around the marina, I was really pleased that I managed to walk for so long (about 3 hours) with no problems to my bad hip. We are planning a lazy day around the pool today.
Hope you all have a great day
Kim x
Hey Judy, weather not too bad here either near sunny skeggy. My op is on Thursday so I shall joining Mel in hotel hospital if she’s still in. I’m really trying to be brave but I was up most of last night scaring myself with the “what if’s” and should I have gone with the tummy diep instead of the expander implant? Three things putting me off that though, is the massive tummy scar from hip to hip and the extended recovery from two operation sites and the risk of the blood vessels not knitting together with partial or all of the tissue dying. The LD flap is out too as the surgeon did say I may have problems in my job with regard to pulling or movement in the shoulder and back when trying to ride or lead strong horses. So I’m just going to stick to what Ive decided and can only hope for the best. Or should I find a new job… No, who’s going to employ me with this DX hanging over me… or should I… or should i…arrrghhhhh.
Sat here in the cold too with loads of jumpers as the plumbers are in trying to put a complete bathroom in before I get home possibly Friday (i hope) so no water, loo and the back doors wide open as there in and out all the time. It’s not their fault. My original op date for WLE was for Sept 26th and I would have been feeling much better by now had we stuck to the previous plan. At least It should be warm in the hospital and the loos work. Having to go next door for now.
Happy holiday Kim. Have a great time. x
Mel - Lets hope your oncologist gets a shift on now your on the ward.
Moira - It’s good to hear from you. Your right about the age thing at least this disease had taught me to live every day now. We went to watch OH grandson play football yesterday. I was in tears as soon as I saw his little 5 year old legs fighting for every chance to defend the goal. I wasn’t biased either he really was third best player to the goaly and there goal scorer. In fact the wind carried the ball so fast toward the goal he jumped to head it away and it knocked him clean off his feet. It hurt him so much he cried however the goal was averted. We were all so proud. Later, my daughter and I made a lovely milkybar cake. Some thing I didn’t have time for before as I worked every weekend teaching. I really do feel I have missed out on so much of the little things with my kids now. Still I’m making up for it and the farm Ive worked so hard for is mortage free.
Got to go, have to make a desicion on whether the tiles should go on longways or sideways.
Hope all other angels are keeping wrapped up and warm. Lv and Hugs. Sandy. xxxx
Hi Angels
I’ve just been for a fitting for a contact prosthesis, but unfortunately found out I can’t have one yet as I have to wait 6 months after rads. The trip was useful though as I found out I was wearing the wrong size bra, which was why the prosthesis was pulling it forward. I was wearing a 36a instead of a 34b. The difference it has made wearing the right bra size is incredible. I also stayed for a chat at the drop in centre for the first time and met some lovely ladies, so overall a good morning.
Debra I’ve booked onto that presentation on Thursday so will see you there
Sandy - if bra size makes a difference, then I’m the same size as you and didn’t need drains after my mx so fingers crossed. I know it’s easier said than done but try not to worry too much. You’ve already gone through the worst.
Kim - glad you’re enjoying your holiday. 3 miles - that’s great.
I think I’ve found the cause of my buckling knee - driving. I was stuck in traffic again yesterday and my leg was really feeling it on the clutch.
Kate - Losing eyelashes the first time was bad enough. Mine haven’t come back properly yet - just stubble. When they come back I’ll have to superglue them on 
Mel - I hope you’re doing ok and due to be released soon. If your onc will let you have it Astragalus is supposed to boost white blood cells.
Judy - I’m glad the rads are going ok. Keep slapping the aqueous cream on.
Judy - Your right, I was getting in a pickle but strangely woke up this morning very possitive after a good nights sleep. Maybe that’s all I needed. Are you crispier than a packet of walkers yet. Lol. Pleased the rads aren’t too bad for you. Keep up the good work.
Mel A - Your right too. I think we have all be through the worst part and this is just the last part of getting rid for me. Have you been to the GP about your buckling knee. My OH had ultra sonic therapy on his weak arm which really helped. Funnily enough for years I too thought my bra size was 36a but found out when I went for my first ever fitting about ten years ago that I was actually 34b. I do hope I get get away with the drains. Let us know if you get to meet up with Debra.
Kate - I still have no sign of any eyelashes. Does it mean they will grow and shed altogether forever and i wonder if it’s the same for the eyebrows. Must do some research whilst I’m incarcerated.
Mel - How are you getting on. Thinking of you.
Pauline - Me too. Thanks. Hope your not working too hard.
Lv and hugs Angels. Sandy. xxx
Kate a contact prosthesis has a sticky back that sticks firmly to your skin, rather than sitting loosly in your bra or pocket. I’ve got a couple of nice dresses that would cover my chest nicely but you can’t really wear with a strapped bra. I would be able to wear a strapless bra with a contact prosthesis as it wouldn’t be dependent on my bra holding it in place. That’s the theory anyway
Oh Lynn big hugs. I hope your mum starts feeling better very soon. You must be very worried. What a disappointment with the rads. They’re over now though - excuse for more bubbly?
Rozz - Last rads today - woohoo! A meet up sounds great Will your dog cope with mine do you think? She’s dead friendly but very bouncy like Tigger from Winnie the Pooh, so not all dogs take to her. I can always leave her home if you think it will be a problem. I’ll pm you my number.
Philomena it’s just as well you’re clued up about medicine etc and know to challenge your doctor. Good for you.
Sandy - good luck for tomorrow. I’ll be thinking about you xx
Kate - go with whatever makes you feel comfortable. I feel so much better today as my prosthesis is being held firmly in place by my bra and I look more even and natural. Just got to pluck up the courage to get a swimming cossie now ( and use it) and the Gok school of self confidence will be complete
Hi all
I’m out!!! released when neuts were 2 with oral antibiotics and strict instructions to return immediately if temp goes up. Great to be home but feeling very tired. Just sleeping and dragging myself about thanks for all your good wishes . it really makes a difference knowing you’re all out there! .I’m working my way through all the series of Breaking Bad on netflix. Considering whether i too could manage an illegal money generating activity! Hopefully I’ll feel better in time to have last cycle next week- 2 doses to go.
My skin is much better now after rads. all the bits that turned black have peeled off and the split under my boob has almost healed.
good luck tomorrow Sandy- just take it one step at a time.
I’ve read all your other many many posts but just can’t keep up with them all, so love to everyone and hope evrything is moving along smoothly!!
love Mel xxx:smileyvery-happy:
Mel - I’m so glad you’re home and nearing the end of your treatment. Take it easy xx
Amber I’m glad you had a good holiday and enjoyed the concert
Ha ha Rozz, mine’s a labradoodle and sounds very similar. She loves everybody and demands fuss whether they love her or not. Sounds like that must be the lab in her She’s only 10 months old too so still giddy. I sent you a personal message with my phone number - I don’t know whether you would get an alert or not for that. Looking forward to seeing you on Saturday.
Hi Debra I’m really sorry but I’m going to have to cancel tonight. Andy can’t come to the meeting and would have to wait in the car for 2 hours or drop me off and come back after. As it’s a 40 minute journey each way it’s too much for him at the mo as he’s not too well himself and has been working all day. It would be nice to see you on Saturday if you can make it for a walk with me, Rozz and the pooches
Not going well. Had op yesterday so much pain. Developed blood clot. Breast twice the size as the other. Back in theatre soon. Defo had enough 
Sandy that’s awful hope they get you sorted and pain free soon virtual hugs take care Lynn x
oh Sandy so sorry you’re having problems. Hope you are pain free now and sorted. Thinking of you and sending virtual hugs.:smileysad: Mel xxx
Sandy I’m so sorry things haven’t gone very well. I hope they get you sorted soon and keep you pain free in the meantime. Big hugs xx
Oh good. I’m glad she’s ok. Thanks for letting us know.
I’m looking forward to meeting up with Rozz later to take the pooches out
I’m so glad to hear that Sandie is Ok.
Moira - I’ve been using the fast shampoo for about 6 weeks now and my hair is around 1/2" and quite thick at the sides and back, my crown is around 1/4" but is coming on. I’m not sure if the shampoo has helped or not.
Angie - I’ve also had aches and pains in my joints but I’ve put them down to my arthritis. My skin is really dry and I keep having the odd break out of spots, which is a first for me! So I think this must be the tamoxifen.
The holiday has done both me and my OH the world of good. I feel much more relaxed and really looking forward to returning to work at the beginning of November. I have a meeting with occ health tomorrow to go through the details of my phased return to work.
Take care everyone
Kim x
Well said Amber. Angie you’ve been through a lot and maybe need some quality time for ‘you’. Time with your grandkids or a holiday may be just the ticket.
I have also changed my perspective on life and do not want to return to the 50 odd hours a week I was doing pre diagnosis. Besides the fact that family time is way more important and life is too short to waste just on work I don’t want to give this thing any hope of returning.
Kim I’m glad you enjoyed the holiday and feel more rested for it. I’ve also got an occupational health appointment tomorrow.
Moira enjoy your cruise - I’m not jealous at all (honest!)
Rozz I hope you and Rocky have recovered from our long walk yesterday. It was really good to meet you and a pooch that’s as bouncy as Daisy We really enjoyed the walk. xx
Angie I’m glad you’re taking it easy and talking about your feelings. Your November trip sounds like fun.
Gilly and Judy I missed your posts earlier. It’s good to hear things are getting easier for you now Gilly.
Judy it sounds like you already had a grip on what’s important. Good for you
Hi angels off to Tenerife in the morning can’t Believe it’s here. Glad to hear sandy recovering and Angie feeling a bit better will try to keep up with your posts if there’s wifi take care be back in a week Lynn x