Hi All,
Another newbie here - I had my first chemo this morning so just made it to the August group Writing this slightly whoozy in my bed, as it feels like the side effects are just kicking in, currently feeling as if I have I downed an inadvisable number of gin and tonics over lunch time - head is a bit fuzzy, a little touch of nausea and everything is a wee bit slow and befuddled.
I was diagnosed in April with hormone positive lobular cancer, had a mastectomy and immediate implant reconstruction in May, and they found macromets in a node, so this was followed by full node clearance at the end of June. Luckily other nodes were clear - I was borderline for chemo and they had discussed the Optima trial (the tumour would be sent for the Prosigna test to determine likely benefit of chemo) with me before realising I was too young (to go on the trial you need to be over 40 and I’m 36), so after getting my CT scan results this Tuesday (full body scan was clear) it was full steam ahead today! I’m on accelerated EC, so 4 fortnightly doses, and then 12 weekly paclitaxel, so feels a long old slog ahead, but I’m pleased to be onto this phase and cracking on with it now, and hoping I get through without too many delays so I’m done for Christmas.
All feels a real unknown about how my body will cope at the moment - cancer aside (ha!) I’m fit and well, and I’ve gotta say it feels very alien to be subjecting my body to something that will make it feel ill, as aside from the obvious physical after affects of surgery and being pretty generally anxious, I’ve been quite ‘well’ through this process so far. I have two young daughters (3 and 6) so home life is hectic. Work wise, I’m a self-employed storyteller and musician running workshops and groups for families, so I’ve had to take a few months off already and dep out my work (I’ve done odd sessions when I can). I’m working on some recording and digital content whilst I’m off regular work, but I’m hoping on better days I might be able to do some sessions, but just trying to take it day by day. Finances aside, it’s so frustrating to be forced away from the job I love and business I’ve built up, but I think I will approach things differently (in a positive way!) when I go back rather than rushing back at full pelt.
Oh, and I went for the big hair chop yesterday and am not cold capping (my raggedy mum hair wasn’t really my crowning glory, and I figured I’d get very frustrated not being able to style, and a wee bit obsessive about watching for shedding, so going to embrace the wigs, scarves and bald look for a while) so will be watching my head with interest and go for the full shave. Quite enjoying my funky short 'do in the interim though!
Sorry, this was a mega post Look forward to meet you all on here, good luck and love to everyone