I went to the breast unit yesterday hoping to be told it was another ‘Cyst’ but no, after the biopsy was taken i was asked to go into a room to be told that the Dr whom had performed the biopsy was very concerned about the size and shape of the lump and to expect the worst, the staff at the hospital was in my opinion all ‘Angels’ they could not have been more sympathetic and helpful, its a worrying time now until Monday 8th April, but just knowing that they are all there if i need them is so reasurring. Im hoping that all will be ok, if not then I will be ready for the fight. Watch this space! 
Hi Gill
So sorry you have been given this news. I hope when you go back on the 8th, that things aren’t quite as bad as the hospital seem to think. I am glad though that you appear to have a good team and that is half the battle. You must keep coming on here, ask questions, have a rant if you need to. We are on your side too and will support you throughout whatever you may be facing.
Big hugs, and good luck for 8th April.
Poemsgalore xx
Hi Gill66
I’m sorry to read you’re having a tough time at the moment. As well as the support you are receiving here you may find it helpful to talk things through with a member of staff on the helpline. Here you can share your feelings with someone who will offer you a listening ear as well as emotional support and practical information. The number to call is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9 to 5pm and Saturday 10 to 2pm.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator
hi gill66
just to say hi, anything you want to ask or say, this is the place to do it. you sound like you have a very positive attitude so far, good luck with your appointment next week and let us know how you get on.
angie xx
Hope its not bad news or you on Monday xx I am having a biopsy tomorrow afternoon with the consultant I to will hope for the best but prepared for whatever is thrown at me xx
hugs
sue x
Thank you for all the reasurring and friendly/positive words and to keep me updated with all YOUR test results too! I hope that all yours are clear and that everything is normal 
VERY BIG HUGS TO YOU ALL XXX
(Sunday 7th) I feel more positive and just want tomorrow to come now! lol, Its been an emotional rollercoaster this week, I have kept myself busy with work and family so its not been too bad, I have received lots of reasurrance from my partner & Mum that everything will be ok, I have also a “Gut” feeling that everything will be fine (I’m normally right).
So today Im off on my Motorbike (Suzuki Bandit 1200 
) to Blackpool with my partner for a fun day out (Maybe some candyfloss will be on the menu?) we shall see.
I will let you all know as soon as I can tomorrow, thank you all for being a BIG part of my waiting, you are all an inspiration and I have loved reading your comments and thoughts.
Bless you all xxx
Gill
Well the results are in and I have BC (DCIS) I have to go for more biopsys and xrays tomorrow to see if it has spread anywhere else, my consultant is hopeful that it is contained in the one area so is planninig for a MX as the lump is very large and a reconstruction once it has been removed, again I cannot fault all the nurses and doctors whom have been so supportive and contine to be. The worst part was telling my Mum and my eldest son, but what breaks my heart is my youngest son is serving in the British Army and is at the moment on his 3rd tour in Afghanistan, I really dont want him to know. I will keep updating and I will definatley keep smiling because I know that everything will be fine.
Hi Gill
Sorry to hear about your diagnosis and hope it’s still contained. When do you get your results?
Good to hear you have some great support from your partner and family 
I’m also a keen motorcyclist (GSXR750) and have High Grade DCIS…
I’ve had 2 WLE to try to get clear margins and go back for results of the 2nd surgery on 15/4. If margins are still not clear - will have to have mastectomy.
They seem to think mine is still just in the milk ducts and was 16mm the last time. I’m also positive most of the time with the odd ‘wobble’! My Mum and my Grandmother both had BC and Mum died in 1994 sadly, so I have the odd moment of being scared. Dad also died from cancer 3 years ago and I split with my partner in October. Fortunately, I have some fantastic and supportive friends
Hoping for warmer weather once I’ve recovered enough from the surgery to ride. Leathers may still be a bit tight - ouch! Need to find new riding buddies as my ex still goes out with my other friends and he has a new girlfriend…
Onwards and (mostly) upwards
Sue XXX
Oh Bless you Gill,
Sorry to hear your news, but pleased that you are remaining strong and positive . It really is the only way forward and it will help everyone around you cope much better. I too had a mx as my tumour was too large in a small breast to save . I had FEC T Chemo and it was all very doable. It was not half as bad as I imagined. I was never sick because the anti sickness drugs worked so well. It had spread to my Lymph nodes which meant I had to have an Axillary Node Clearance, but that operation too went really well.
You will be back on your bike before you know it. It really does go very quick once you start treatment and get on the roller coaster journey, just watch out for the pot holes along the way !!
Take care and keep us posted with your progress. Sending you love, gentle hugs and positive vibes Tracy xxx
Thank you for all you lovely replys they are so welcomed at this time, sorry for not getting back sooner but i was awaiting my appointment yesterday 17/04/13 for the results of my second biopsys.
Firstly I have been so positive since being diagnosed on the 8th April 13 i even gave up smoking even though my stress levels are cosidered to be very high at the moment with everything, but i managed and coped.
The Appointment my mum attended the clinic with me today as my partner had to work, we was called into a small room to then have to wait 15 mins for the Dr (The lovely HCA apologised and made us a welcoming cuppa) When the Dr eventually appeared she stated that some cancer cells may have escaped but they will know more when they remove the breast, she then went on to discuss what treatment (breast reconstruction) i was willing to undertake (I had already discussed this with my lovely BCN last thursday) she then stated that she wanted a 2nd opinion from another Dr, so off she trotted to find this other Dr. Meanwhile we was left with another BCN who stated that they could hold the op for 6 weeks! this freaked me as i waas under the impression i was being admitted before the end of April, but i kept my cool and awaited the other Dr’s advise. The other Dr came in with my own Dr and i was asked to remove my upper clothing so they could try and asses which treatment was going to be more succesful, which they did,(I asked my mum to leave the room whilst this assesment was taking place, I really wish that i hadn’t now), then they went on to say they would wait for a few weeks (as i was a ex-smoker) for the op to go ahead, they then discussed OVER MY HEAD about radiotherepy! er excuse me im still here in the room and i was told i was not having any radiotherepy as it was not needed!!! (by this time my head had started to smoulder!!!) they then left the room and i broke down! the BCN whom i was left me asked me if I was “Angry”!!! wrong thing to say! (head smoking now) I explained that i should have started a new job on the 15th April 13 and had to put it back until July/Aug 13 (the company was willing for me to do my induction before my op) but i explained that i would be being admitted before the end of April (I had all my pre-op checks last week) we have only just started to get back on our feet after my partner had been made redundant, he started a new job recently, but in the time he was out of work we had to use all of our savings to pay bills ect ect. So really i could have been back at work now earning a decent wage, but its too late now so hence i can only receive ESA. The Dr came back into the room to say they would perform the op on the 20th May 2013 as she was on holiday for 2 weeks (Nice to Know) from the begining of May, NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!! why not tell me this the previous week??? I could have started the induction proccess!!! So now I have to go back to living with a limited income and stressing over bills! the Dr asked me why i was upset the BCN stated She’s ANGRY (Head has now blown off shoulders) I exploded I had to leave the room imediatley as i couldnt breathe, my mum was so shocked when i walked out but i felt as though i was going to passout/vomit and needed fresh air immediatley. I have never felt so low since being diagnosed as i did yesterday, I was made to feel like a naughty school girl for smoking, well im so sorry, i dont go out drinking i have never done drugs (apart from prescribed) i eat healthy (im a vegitarian) I TRIED MY BEST!!! and look what i got!!! When I got home I talked to my friend (who also has BC) and she stated they did the same with me too, they change there minds all the time regarding treatment, surgery ect ect.
Today sorry guys i have to say ive had a couple of ciggys, but i will stop, its so hard when your diagnosed with the “Big C” and your youngest son is in Afghanistan on the front line, being shot at frequently (he is in the sniper division)he does not know anything about my BC at this moment in time but i know its no excuse to smoke, I will go back to my patches & mints & Electric Ciggy & biting nails and shouting a hubby very soon. I have this morning been on the phone to those lovely Mcmillan Nurses and had a right good old moan and cry and am starting again to build up my confidence (one day at a time) and my lovely friend is coming over later with cream cakes and a shoulder to cry on.
susieseaside send me your number if you like, it will be good to have a chat.
Gill66
Sorry to hear your treatment by the dr’s wasn’t as good as it should have been but unfortunately they don’t get it right for everyone. I ‘stamped my foot’ at the first appointment I had as the dr suggested it was too late in the day to get the mamogram/ultrasound/biopsies done so I’d have to go to a different unit the following day - I was in week 2 of a new job so really didn’t want to have to take another day off! It worked, but after they had done all the results I knew something was wrong but didn’t know what - as they just said ‘they were concerned’ two weeks later his first words were ‘as discussed last time you do have BC’ both my hubby and I were gobsmacked as there hadn’t been any discussion previously as he was not interested! Luckily I was able to move to a different surgeon for the next and subsequent appointments and this guy seems to care about the person and not just the money he’s earning! I was told before surgery that it was 50/50 on radiotherapy but once I’d had my surgery its chemo and radio so they do change treatments based on the lastest info they have and surgery gives them a lot more detail so please don’t take it as read that the info they have given you so far is 100% accurate as they do loads and loads of testing on the tissue they take out - for me I’m surprised how much testing they have done. They found 3 tumours but had only known about 2 in advance and one of them is only 1.5mm in size but they are still doing all the testing on it to make sure they give me the right treatment for the long term treatment.
Hope you can talk to your new company about doing your induction in advance of the op and get to know a few people - I did 8 weeks of my new job before having surgery and feel I managed to get my feet a little way under the table but not far enough that I won’t have to start again when I go back!
Good luck and if I can be of any help please shout, and this site is good for a rant if you need one in future!
Kate
xx
Hi Kate/everyone
Last week I had a consultation with my own BCN(after the fiasco on the last appointment) and we sorted the situation together as she pointed out I had “Lost all Contol” of the situation which was indeed true.
I attended another appointment yesterday and the Doctor was so different with me, I know some people take there Cancer Serious but I Dont (maybe its because I saw my Nephew 23 battle Lung Cancer & win) that makes me stronger? I dont know? All I know is that its not getting me down and until the op & after treatment im going to live life to the full which includes crazy rides out on my motorbike, dancing till I drop with my mates & eating my fair share of lovely cream cakes
Im now back fully in control of my situation and have even given the ciggys a kick into touch again (1 Week) woo hoooo.
Thank you so much to my lovely BCN who has helped me so much to regain my confidence again and to my Doctor who now understands my situation and now takes a more laid back approach to me (we had a right good giggle yesterday even my mum was laughing shes 78! at the comments I was making & blushing too!!!)
I think some Doctors need to be more relaxed with patients it helps so much, not clinical nor serious does not help sometimes, it didnt in my situation anyway.
Thank you for your replies it does help and i really appreciate it, sorry if i dont reply sooner but im usually frolliking about misbehaving, but enjoying myself lol xxx 