Oh no sounds like you need a rest babe.
Make sure you do! Hopefully you will feel better soon. Sounds rotten.
I ended up working til 8.30 which I wasn’t prepared for. So that made me ratty. Im generally quite ratty at the moment I think it’s cause I’m worrying about changing jobs and in the meantime they are piling on as much work as they can get away with.
I hate being ratty though. Think it’s cause I’m tired. Also was hoping for a wind down before Christmas but I had forgotten how manic we usually are x
Well done. At least that’s another one finished.iland always good to know you’re heart can hack it! I had my zoladex today.next one is due the first day of my new job lol!
Hmm it’s a tough one re work. I think that having such a hard job doesn’t help. Is there any option to do less days or job share? Or would that not work either for your or them? I think it’s reasonable that you’re a bit up and down with it - you are not long having finished your treatment. However I’m not sure whether you’re feeling more rubbish than you’re letting on? I think it’s important to understand how you feel not what ‘they’ think. At the moment it still feels like it’s pretty changeable for you, and as I said I think that’s normal but I’m not sure if the nature of the work will ever enable it to even out so it’s mostly OK?
Re the secondment are there other feelers you can put out for anything els? I think that if you are thinking about going you need to have a plan in place, even if it’s some part time volunteering or something or something completely different.i think leaving without something else to do might do your head in a bit as you’re so active ?
Hope you’re feeling OK after the injection. I have just been for sushi with some very good friends, had a lovely ‘putting the world to rights’ dinner xzx
You are not always whining and have nothing to apologise for. You NEVER moan and the whole point of this forum is to have a safe place to discuss things.
I feel like you need someone to give you some professional advice, is there anyone in HR you can speak to? Someone different than occupational health? There must be some solution where you can flex a bit but keep your options open? Xx
Yeah and how much did I go on and on about it lol!
I know what you mean, you need to navigate it carefully. Sleep on it and see how you feel in the morning xx
Sounds like a scam my lovely.
They are gits so don’t give any details. If you’re worried look up the official body and investigate separately. Check it out.
I think you need to chill. All the ‘little’ stresses are piling up on you.hope you can chill a bit xx
Yeah you’ve just had a lot on your mind and you’re not well. And you’ve just had your injection.
It’s quite enough thank you very much x
How are you feeling today? Hope much better?
I met my new boss for a drink after work. He was telling me how difficult my team will be lol.
My hubby still isn’t convinced but I think it feels ok. He is a nice man. It will just be stressy I think. Especially if they are all rubbish eek.
I’m glad of the change though even if it’s a big risk x
Sounds frantic and full on.
Hope you get through today OK and then get to enjoy time with your family. Maybe next week we need to brainstorm ideas for you career- wise? I think if you feel like you’re doing something you will feel better?
Thanks for the words of wisdom I wish I was all that haha. I think the reality of it being hard work and a shaky little business hit me a bit so I didn’t sleep. Financially I know I have a fall back which is very lucky so there isn’t really anything to worry about is there? Argh it’s just himself being negative that sets me on edge I think x
Oh blimey! You have got so much going on. Are you ok? That sounds complicated and intense. Hope you’re not too shattered and get to enjoy seeing your family. I’ve been at my old schoolfriends for my Christmas catch up we had a Chinese takeaway in our pajamas haha and a good old chat.hope you’ve cleared your head a bit xx
It sounds like you’ve had something click in your head. So I’m not worrying about you ?
Hope the tree shopping was good.
Hope the rest of the weekend is chilled xx
Hey hope work is OK, you resolve will stay strong I’m sure.
Sounds like a good weekend. I’m glad your brother is good and it’s great you have longer with your sister. We had dinner round at my brother in laws for his bday which was nice. Very last minute though so it was good we were around. Saw his sons which is always nice.
Sunday I was rubbish. Think I’m coming down with a cold. Two work Christmas parties this week so need to sort myself out lol. Let me know how you get on today. Xx
So there’s nine working days but I have two holidays still to take Eek! Was off today. My lovely lymphoedema nurse has leant me a lymph assist machine to try every day to see if it gets my arm down so fingers crossed. If it works I will be delighted.
Sounds like a rubbish day. I’m so sorry.you must be shattered with it all. Did anything happen about the ‘whistle blowing’ x
Well at least you know you did the right thing.
Hopefully they will take it on board.
Thanks just tried clothes on for my Christmas party and they don’t fit.am so out of shape.need to pull my finger out. Lots to do in the next few weeks. Need to get myself sorted x
Oh blimey re work.
It feels like they are helping you make the decision.
I had a meal with work people today. No drinking as I was driving. But I still always feel like I say too much. Too many opinions and too honest. I need to not talk at the one where I’m drinking. Hmmm will see how that goes.Thanks for your inspiring words I’m hoping I use the new job to try and look after myself more.
Re the mammogram it’s so stressful isn’t it? However you are not long out of chemo so there will have been no time for anything horrible to have happened, and you are keeping an eye out so you would have felt something. I guess at least it’s over with before Christmas which means you can relax and enjoy it once it’s over and done with.
I know it’s grim though. Will be thinking of you. Let me know how you get on xxxxx
Yeah the waiting sucks big time.
At least you’ve had the test now. Really hope you get your results before Christmas so it’s not hanging over you.
No they have said one every year for me re mammograms but I did have a lumpectomy not a mastectomy so not sure if that has anything to do with it?
Don’t worry about it. I think thinks will happen (advances) between now and then.so it will probably all be different anyway. Also I’m sure if you want it annually you’d be able to ask for it.
Got my Christmas party tomorrow. Going to try and not get emotional lol. Xx
Yes I am drinking, but going to try not to overdo it. Lol. Will see how I get on.
Re the honesty I dont think I’d like to be any other way but really do over think things after I’ve blooming said them. I am not sure why I’m like that. I have always had thoughts that when I’ve articulated wanted to immediately apologise for afterwards in the sense that I apologise for speaking?!? My husband has spent the last 18 years trying to stop me apologising for breathing, so now I’m a weird combination of confidence and intermittency hating myself lol. Must be a childhood throwback but I don’t know the reason.
Hope today is a better day for you. Big hugs xx
Oh hun I’m sorry. That’s tough.
Hope you’re OK?
All good here. Got drunk a bit told everyone I love them so it’s fine no tears just happy stuff lol
Yeah it was really nice actually. They told me the door is open to go back which is nice too eh?
Could have been romantic? Lol hope the qchillws is OK. Need to start cleaning up for Christmas today argh x
Hmmm keep getting flashbacks was just so drunk. Why did I let that happen?!? I hate getting like that. Get the proper regrets afterward even if I didn’t do anything bad.apart from hugging everyone to death.Ah well I guess I won’t see most of them again after next week. And I can try to not have a blow out in the future.
There is time re cards and wrapping. My house is still awful but I’m off for the next two days. So I can at least make it clean. Well cleaner lol.
Meeting my new team tomorrow so should be interesting. Have no idea how to behave. Went to see my friends who live miles away in Essex to see their new house. Annoyed himself greatly as I blooming put their old address in! Luckily it’s only 25 mins away. She seemed a bit frazzled. He was asking why we hadn’t seen them for so long ( cause she keeps cancelling on me unless we travel all the way there lol) she is lovely but for some reason I always feel sad when I’ve seen them. Hope you have a good day tomorrow xxxx
She’s lovely but frazzled I think and so tired with the kids that maybe she just says random things sometimes and is a bit out of it.
Glad work was ok. Do you get Christmas off or are you working?
I met the team they seem nice. Hope I did OK. Was very chatty and friendly and tried to be as nice as possible. Time will tell if that’s the right approach but to be honest I don’t think I’d like to behave any other way anyway.
Re the running, I think you are doing brilliantly to persevere. That’s the main battle in your head. Your body has been through the ringer and you’re still having treatment so it’s bound to be up and down. Keeping going is the key.
Still feeling a bit guilty for getting so drunk. Will just have to stop moving forward. Need a health kick anyway. Have worked out it will take about 45 mins to walk to work so that should hopefully make a difference. X