You are an inspiration!! 7 miles is mad.
Yes am planning some healthy and open discourse lol (and some wine I think as it’s Friday!) hope it goes well xxxx
Weird i thought I’d posted! Good luck good luck good luck - thinking about fruity cider now nom nom.
Well done you, you clever thing!!
We are lightweights managed a couple of glasses
So glad you did it.
I’m rubbish, start the exercise with you as my inspiration next week!’ xxxx
Oh that’s good, another week and a relaxed approach sounds ideal.
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Yeah I’m like that. Best to keep going eh?
Glad you’ve had a good weekend. I went to visit some family this afternoon which was nice (over an hours drive each way though) so a bit tired. Also had a weird thing happen on Friday, the bloke that runs the company I went to an interview for a few weeks ago (quite a protracted process) contact me. I was down to the last two for the job and didn’t get it. So I processed it and decided it was a good experience (first time I’ve felt that i could leave the comfort of my old job post cancer) and have moved on. Anyway the other person who they had offered it to had fallen through and would I be interested!? Argh feel v strange and not sure what to do x
I appreciate your advice!! I’m going to do a pros and cons list, I think I need to get over the ’ being second choice’ thing. Since the cancer it’s made me more risk averse which is stupid really as I know things are so transient now and it’s all in our heads anyway!! Clinging onto routine and ‘security’… I think if I’d got it first time around I would have taken it, but I was v nervous about a lot of stuff.so when I didn’t get it I just decided to appreciate all the things I like about my current job, so now my heads all over the place lol! Ah well! Hope you have a good Monday xx
I kinda wish I could be more devil may care…
I think I’m due for a change but it’s proper scary!! my current job has been a bit of a comfort blanket however I’m not sure I’d have stayed at long if all the rubbish stuff hadn’t have happened. And I know if I take it it will be hard work and a lot of pressure (I do have pressure in this current job but it’s not as bad it’s more workload and deadlines). Careerist it feels a bit like if I don’t take this then I may never take the next step up and I’ve spent the last couple of years wondering if I want the additional pressure (however I’m also frustrated I’m not moving forward!) but then if I get ill again after I move it will feel like I’ve tempted fate but then if I follow that line of thought I’ll never do anything it’s ridiculous…
Did you manage to sleep? Stargazing sounds good…
I love my team but they are all younger than me so no guarantee they will stay I guess…
I am not sure about the added pressure but I think the frustration of not moving forward doesn’t help either…
Oh no!! You poor thing. Do you think it’s definitely the tamoxifen. I just struggle to know what causes what. I think it’s usually a combination of things? Did you get any tips on the other thread?
Yeah it’s a head of department type of job for a small business that needs a complete injection of change so senior management team type stuff. My current job is for a much bigger company (another consideration) buy there’s nowhere really for me to go next…
I think I’m feeling more like taking it but it does mean I’ll be v stressed for at least the first six months (I know what I’m like lol) x
I am considering it (feeling more pro than con at the moment! Going to meet him to discuss on Thursday so will be resolved by the end of the week). How long are you on herceptin for? I think it sounds like you have a good plan. I have persevered with everything my oncologist advises as it’s been bearable. And when I’ve felt really rubbish I’ve tried alternative therapies.best one to date has been accupuncture,but that’s like part counselling as well ?
A long slog!! But it’s worth it.
Thanks. I just really hate making decisions lol. Need to grow a pair xx
Oh bless poor little kittens!!
Hope you have a good Wednesday! It’s soo hot I’m melting in the office x
Oh wow sounds good! Where are you then if it doesn’t get too hot?
My gut feels like it’s exciting. My husband is worrying about how the added pressure will affect me. All my friends think I will be fine (but they don’t have to listen to me go on every night) argh lol
Oh I love the Isle of Man! It was my first holiday with my husband! What a great place to be.
I think you’re right re the crossroads. Funny we have only ‘met’ recently but you nailed it lol! It feels like I’ve just come out of a really horrid time (dad passing away, so the timeline was cancer, looking after ailing dad,dad passing away, dealing with all that) and now it’s over a year and I am starting to feel like it’s time to focus on me but I’ve always struggled with knowing what I really want.
Yeah I think our partners struggle with the way ones mood can change quite rapidly on the cancer road. I have found my emotions flex and are a lot more on the surface now. l think if you were quite steady before (which I was) it’s a shock so they then don’t know how to deal with it, thinking everything is a bid thing. Pixie cut sounds amazing! How do you feel? X
You are taking so many positive steps! The hair, the running ? ? I’m so impressed!
I think if you can find peace in the stars thats brilliant. I have always found nature calming, so love a nice tree (haha) and the stars at night are fab.
I hear you re the photogenic stuff, I only like my face straight on. If i see my face sideways I feel horrified but I know thats how people see me all the time eh!
It’s funny you should say that I have a lot of life ahead of me, I struggle to see that now. I’m generally positive and focus on moving forward but I can’t see too far ahead. It’s only been the last few months that I’ve booked a holiday in advance, which is ridiculous really as, if somethjng bad happens it will have happened whether there is a holiday booked or not! Friday tomorrow hurrah! Got a busy day and then seeing my friend for a couple of hours in the evening. Do you have any plans for the bank holiday? Xx
That sounds like a fabulous and very active weekend! It’s a bit over a year for dad. I think the hardest bit is it was a bit like losing my mum again, she has been gone for over 14 years but I think still having him with us kept it at bay somewhat. Im sorry about your dad, it’s such a big thing isn’t it? Hope you have any amazing weekend of fresh air and fitness xxx
Wow is it feeling real? Funny about other opportunities but see how you feel going back first lovely! There’s time to do new things once you’re settled in. New uniforms too! All change all change! Xx
You have been busy!! Glad you’re pacing yourself on the work stuff. Let’s get through the first few days eh?
Im just talking to a friend who wants a second baby, her husband had two previous kids and they have one child together. She wants another and he doesn’t. It feels all encompassing for her. Makes me wonder if I just don’t want it enough. I hear the advice I’m giving and I feel like I’m not as black and white as that. After cancer it’s just never a clear cut issue I don’t think. I kinda wish I was more single minded but I guess that’s just not necessarily Me! X
I can appreciate how change in your fitness is frustrating for you, but I just wanted to say that running ten miles after all the horrible treatment you’ve had and are continuing to have is bloomin amazing!! You should be really proud of yourself. Seriously.
That said it’s so rubbish when your body doesn’t feel like your own any more and you have got to expect it to take some time. You are doing brilliantly. A million times better than I did! I’m still not fit. Lol. Try not to be too hard on yourself. You will get back to where you are, as you’re so far ahead already but it won’t be overnight I’m afraid.and I feel your pain the horrible sweats do my head in.
Thank you for your kind words and understanding. I think there are just so many shades of grey in how I feel about everything at the moment (and none of them are kinky!!) xx
You weren’t whinging! At all! You need to get it off your chest otherwise you’ll go mad.
I think the competitiveness will spur you on. You seem really determined and I think that’s brilliant. You need it to deal with all the crappy after affects, taking positive steps is definitely the way forward, it’s just not a straight road sometimes is it. Yes glad it’s another day off tomorrow hurrah! Have a good one too xx