That sounds horrid and emotionally exhausting.
Sounds like she did mean it a little bit (cow) probably subconsciously wanted to make you feel bad as she was stressed.
You definitely needed this week off and you really don’t need to worry about them on top of everything else. Hopefully you can switch off now.
I’m still dithering a bit. I want the mammogram to be over with but maybe I just need to take a leap and face my fears x
Thank you for all your support. I think I know what I’m doing now! Loving bake-off but it always makes me want tea and cake x
Ooh enjoy ?
I think I’ve processes it all now. The current job has been my mainstay whilst everything around me failed. It is where I recovered and pushed myself. It gave me a place to try to get back to normal. The people there are like my family. And then ey were great when my dad was ill and I was caring for him and when he died
That’s not to say I don’t want to move forward and professionally I’ve been at a standstill really. But all that breast cancer journey and losing my last parent is tied up there and that’s why I’ve felt so rotten I think.
At least I can rationalise it now. And whatever happens next it’s important to move forward isn’t it?
How’s your day been? Hope it’s been good and you are still getting chance to relax xxx
Sounds like a good day anymore still pushing to see what you can do re running which is amazing. And getting a bit of rest too - perfect combo ?
Yep I think the change will be good. I’m OK now I know I’m feeling like this I hate it when I just feel emotional and don’t have a handle on why! Makes me feel like I’m going mad. I do really appreciate you listening. Everyone has been really nice apart from one friend who is exasperated with me I think but she hasn’t had any major illness or loss so I imagine it’s hard for her to see how this might be making me feel and also I guess a bit of tough love won’t hurt me anyway lol.
Hope Thursday is good for you xxx
It’s flown by eh?
Hope you enjoy them xxzz
Sounds like it did you good!! Nice start to the weekend.im good thanks. Worked late and then took a while to chill. Out with old friends in London tomorrow so looking forward to that. Hope you’re OK for your busy day tomorrow I imagine I’ll be steaming this time tomorrow night xxxx
I did that which is why I’m still awake
Lol skeleton sounds like a plan xx
Haha
Did you get to sleep in the end???
Hope you’re not too shattered xxx
Argh nightmare
It’s the tamoxifen and the tea lol
Just getting ready now lol enjoy your day xx
Drank too much too. Gin and prosecco
Bad me!
Ah well left early so hopefully they won’t remember how bad I was lol xxx
Did you run?
Well done you!
Yes I had a nice time thanks. Nice to be chilled at home now. Hope you have a good day x
The week has flown by eh? Sounds like you have a plan re work. Hope you’re feeling OK about it? Maybe you’ll hear some more about that other opportunity this week?
I can’t believe I’m back in tomorrow either. Annual mammogram on Friday. Will be five years since diagnosis which is a bit of a biggie. Bored all my friends on Sat talking about jobs and mammograms. I’m sick of myself going on about it now! Hope tomorrow goes OK and you’re not too shattered x
Sounds killer.but this other thing has come at the right time. Definitely apply. Hope today is OK. Thinking of you xx
Sounds like you’re dealing with it and have a plan ? Hope your meeting goes OK tomorrow. Let me know what they say.
I’m good work is busy i feel a bit like I’m not dealing with it all that well as there’s so much on but it’s probably just cause the decision isn’t made.yet re staying or going lol! Will be fine whatever I’m sure. Xxxx
How are you feeling about it all? You generally sound OK but it also sounds like there’s a lot going on at work. Hope it’s OK? One year eh? Weird anniversary eh? My mammogram is Friday so will be glad when it’s over ?? x
Good luck good luck xxxxxxxxx
Yay well done! Fingers crossed. Glad you’ve done it. Sorry it was a hard day. I was in a terrible mood today. Work was rubbish and I was was quite vocal about everything annoying me but I shouldn’t have been. Hadn’t heard from the other job so chased it and the man said my email had gone to spam!! Argh will be glad when tomorrow’s over xxx
No its just he is supposed to be checking references, might take a bit longer I guess but I told my boss I’d tell him beginning of next week. So timing is key.
Got a new phone via the insurance.
It was ok. I know what you mean re the unfairness of life but I guess you are truly at the coal face with your job, must be hard. Xx
All clear on the mammogram! Whoop whoop xxxx