Babies and other people getting pregnant

Eek but hopefully fingers crossed no one notices! Headache is better thanks. Think it’s a tiredness/screen thing. I’m away this weekend for a pre wedding thing for a friend.spend the night singing karaoke and stayed up really late talking!! Hope the logistics aren’t too bad today xx

I know! Where did the time go? Hope your monday is good? I need to talk to my line manager about the job today so will see how that goes. Take care xx

I think it’s entirely reasonable to still have your patient head on.
Had a chat with him. He was surprised. Wants the opportunity to come up with something to keep me but not sure what that will be. Had a crazy weekend feeling really up and down and stressed but woke up yesterday feeling really calm so it’s been all ok. I think I just can’t stress any more. I text the job bloke to say I wanted to talk with my current employer no response yet so we shall see lol. Injection today so will get that over with and crack on with some work. Hope you’re OK xx

Oh no that sounds like a rubbish day
I can’t believe she didn’t consider how you might be feeling especially if you thought you were friends. I would like to come and have a little word with her!!!
Do you think you are falling a bit foul of people thinking you are ok because you are generally positive and energetic and upbeat? Some people don’t understand the complexities of the layers of experience you’re battling…
It feels like nothing is happening to make it a bit easier for you? Have you had the formal chat about reducing the phased return? Maybe it would help if you agreed something concrete?
Yes still relatively calm lol (probably before the storm eh?) xxxx

You just sound professional and the type of nurse anyone would wish to have taking care of them. They shouldnt be taking advantage of you. And even though it’s hard you need to put yourself first. So if they aren’t taking care of you and helping you, you need to thibk about what’s best for you xxx

Well it’s early days. If you want something new you can run a few different streams of activity, talking around the hospital, looking at jobs where you might have transferable skills such as where you need people skills, team management, engagement, look at stuff that you can do for yourself (even things like Avon!) you could consider doing a course or something to help you change direction or do some coaching or mentoring. Just be open to new things and it will come but it is early days so big changes are always a bit weird xx

Yes, you’ve had such a lot of upheaval it’s nice to have something constant…
See how you feel. Looking at personal development won’t hurt, maybe focus on what make you feel good at the moment and things will fall into place… Or not lol xx

Erm I spoke to my boss about the job offer this week. My friend has just been telling me that I shouldn’t have done it without a signed contract but I wanted to have open dialogue with him. I told the new bloke that was what I was doing. Haven’t heard back from him but he had been v slow. She had made me panic a bit bit my husband said I needed to do it to ensure I left on good terms with my current employer and they had the chance to keep me. If the other bloke doesn’t come back then I guess I will.stick with my current role… Might give it til Friday to see if he comes back. Work is ridiculously busy in the meantime. Other than that ok. Xx

I still think the change would be good too.
Will see whether he comes back, hope work is ok today for you x

Ah glad it was ok. He hasn’t contacted me. I will drop him a line tomorrow I think.
I am a bit worried I did the wrong thing being so honest but such is life x

Hey how’s you?
Hope it’s going OK? I spoke to him today and he is sending the final paperwork through tomorrow. Still feel weird but I think it’s the right thing to have a change? Maybe I just need to do something different for a bit? Hope your week is OK x

Oh gosh after all that! But I’m glad you have the week off. I think a break will do you good.
Thanks re job I just have to face telling my lovely team. Will miss all my friends x

Oooh sounds good! Fingers crossed that works out. Glad you’ve got a good few days off. Perfect timing.
So, my md found out about it (my line manager hadn’t told him) And had a very emotional chat with me yesterday. I did think it was weird he hadn’t told him it’s either a) here’s hoping to fix it before he found out or b) he would rather I went. Anyway he was really upset and wants to see what they can do. Although I think they all think I should just be happy doing my job and not want to move forward. As he knows I felt I had to tell my team as I didn’t want them to hear from anyone else and obviously nothing is fixed is it. They were fine. I felt like crap. Haha.

I don’t think it will be a mega deal, because of what my line manager says. So hopefully it will just be a more easy decision lol.
It’s exhausting feel so vague and have so much work to do!!

Yeah will try. I think it’s called for! I need to sort myself out. Hate dealing with life administration and decisions and everything.

Missed bake-off need to catch up still can’t believe it’s nearly over…
A skip?! You are non stop woman! What’s the plan for your time off? Sounds like some sorting!
I have just had an Indian takeaway and ate too much ?

Sounds like a good week. Even the work bit, although I imagine you’re frustrated with nothing having happen when you’ve been off. That’s annoying when you’ve put a lot into something.
I know what you mean re appointments, it’s a weird thing I feel the same, every now and then have a panic xx

Oh gosh! Just realised I need to book my next zoladex!!

You are of lots of use!
I’ve had acupuncture and she agrees I should go for the job but I’m still finding it hard. I think it’s cause everyone is so nice there all the other times its felt like I had to go. I have a bit of that here but nothing in comparison to all the other jobs. Feels so weird. I think it’s cause I’m not 100 %sure x

So how was your weekend? Hope it was ok?
I’ve been rubbish at chilling out. Everyone ive spoken has told me to go for it. Husband is still a bit reticent. My last fear is that my mammogram is due during the notice period. What if theres something there and I’m between jobs? Argh
Everyone will tell me not to worry as it’s not likely to be there (they don’t know the fear of course!)
But there is that risk. However I can hardly delay further on that basis can I?
Argh

Glad it’s been good. Funny re the smear I had blood on mine too buy all clear. I think the timing re mammogram is rubbish I will have had to decide to go so if there are any problems I will be screwed. But is that a reason to hold off change? My sister says just be positive argh
Still feeling horrid! Better go xxd