The third session today which went well. When I got home had something to eat and drink then a few hours later I felt so down really small things started to get at me making me want to cry and throw in the towel so I ended up going to bed and watching the TV to distract my thoughts.
Does this, has this happened to anyone else - a complete blackness for what seems no reason.
Poppy xx
Happy Tuesday Poppy,
Hopefully a better day for you, we all have these days when we just can’t understand what has happened to us. I myself had a couple of bad day when having radiotherapy thinking do I need to carry on, you can do this and I know you will.
Wishing you well, as I always say one day at a time.
A very big hug ? with love Tili 
Hi Poppy
I guess it’s not for no reason, you’ve had a really difficult year on top of the really difficult year the whole world has had. It’s so tough keeping everything together. I felt really tearful on the radiotherapy table today and wanted to jump off and leg it out of the department as fast as I could and not go back.
Its sounds really tough for you right now. A friend told me it’s okay not to be okay, and it’s brave to be able to admit it, when everyone seems to expect us to battle our illness all the time. Sometimes I just want to howl!
Sending you a big virtual hug
Carmen