Hi guys
Well as it says appointment tomorrow and I’m so petrified. I found a pea sized lump weeks & weeks ago. I was premenstrual… Busy but I noticed it had gotten bigger and panic and dread I’ve put off the appointment. It has grown in size considerably from the first find. It hurts when I touch it but I check it so many times I’m not sure ive caused that. Whilst waitng for Dr app I’ve noticed a on/off pain /ache in my armpit. I wrote that into google…you know how that turnt out. I’ve gone from rational and ready for anything to not being able to sleep. I then started googling benign non c etc to combat my fear. I have a family history with my paternal grandmother and mother experiencing BC. It is now a sausage like shape. I have pcos so maybe I’m cyst prone I keep telling myself but have a weird dread feeling that just won’t leave me.
I have the breast clinic appointment tomorrow I’ve never been more scared in my life. I found this site tonight have just read for hours. I don’t know how I’m going to get through another 2 weeks awaiting results.
It’s like I want to be prepared and ready so I can fight this but then I want to think positive and mentally magic it all to be okay. Mental see-saw is draining me!! 2 more weeks from tomorrow hopefully this will all be over.
I’m just wondering after the mammogram do they then make a decision to do the biopsy or the thin needle withdrawal (new to all of this excuse me) and/or ultrasound or is it “routine” to have all of these measures as precaution?
The letter isn’t very specific.
Sorry for rant. Thanks.