Hi I’m new here, I went to my GP about 2 months ago because of a change in my breast, my nipple had become very red, sore and really itchy. Also small lumps had appeared on the nipple. My GP diagnosed nipple eczema and sent me on my way. I went back to go on 7th March as the soreness and tightness had gotten worse and also my breast has changed in appearance and is dimpled. She immediately referred me to the breast clinic and I have has my appointment which is 5th April. I am really worried and my anxiety has been tipped over the edge. I’m not sleeping at all, I’m trying to function, get my children to school and get myself through my university exams but I am really struggling. If I do fall asleep i end up dreaming about leaving my children behind and them having to plan my funeral. I know it sounds silly but I am so frightened and more so because of my children, especially as my youngest son is autistic. I Have convinced myself that something is wrong. Sorry for going on a bit but I havnt told anyone else and just needed to get it all out.
Lulusmum
Hello and welcome, please do not worry about coming on here, this is a lovely safe place where you are able to say what you are feeling and what you are feeling is totally natural. The ladies on here will totally understand and relate to that fear, the anxious mind overtaking the rational mind because it is fear of the unknown.
For the majority of ladies it does not turn out to be breast cancer, there are a lot of other benign breast conditions that it could be but the breast clinic to where you have been referred are the experts
With regard to university, is there anyone that you can talk to there, do you have a lecturer or pastoral person that you can talk with to let them know what is happening at the moment so that some dispensation can be afforded you whilst you are awaiting your appointment, so that you do not have to think about it at the moment.
Sending you hugs
Helena xxx
Hi thankyou for your reply,
I have thought about speaking to someone at the university but I worry about their reaction. I come from a big family buy worry about telling my siblings for fear of scaring them, the anniversary of my mum’s death (she passed away of cervical cancer) is the same week as my appointment and I really don’t want them to be worrying about me. I’m quite an independent person and don’t like to share my problems but I had to with this as it’s eating me up inside. I have no idea what to expect from the appointment and that’s worrying me just as much.
Thankyou again. I have an appointment with my personal tutor tomorrow so I can let them know. I have a deadline for assignments this week so I’m hoping I can get some more time as I’m too stressed and worn out to even concentrate at the moment.
LulusMum I know exactly how you are feeling as I’m scared to bits myself. I have my breast clinic apt on Tuesday and I just can’t tell my family. My dear Dad has recently gone through this and I simply can’t give my family any more additional worry.
My dr found a lump in the right breast and whilst waiting for my apt, my left breast is feeling uncomfortable too. I’m so scared and worried. It’s gone midnight and there’s no point trying to sleep as just can’t. I’m 54 and feel that everything’s against me when it comes down to receiving good results.
I do hope you receive good results and fully appreciate just how you feel right now. x
Hi again,
Appointment with tutor went well. She gave me an extension on my assignment and I have broken up now for 3 weeks for Easter. The days just seem to be dragging and it seems like my appointment is so long away. I’m trying to think positive but I am extremely scared.