Hi Nikkit
I was diagnosed with grade 2, stage 2 invasive, ER+ to my right breast. I had a lumpectomy and three lymph nodes taken, all clear. I decided to have 4 cycles of EC, but refused the 4 cycles of Paclitaxol due to the risk of side effects, I also refused the suppression therapy even though my oncoptic test came back 36 high risk. I’m now having 20 lots of radiotherapy over 4 weeks, the last week being a booster.
I did a lot of research before I decided to make these decisions and I made it quite clear to my oncologist about that. I’m a great believer in quality of life and as I’m at high risk of the cancer returning somewhere in my body, I wanted to have the full facts in front of me.
So far I’ve had 7 rads, drink loads all day and moisturise twice a day. I gave up wearing bras years ago, only do so for special events etc. I’m wearing lose t shirts and I have very sensitive skin although quite dark, so far I’ve not had one problem with the rads.
Don’t make any decisions on emotions, do your research and get the facts of how declining treatment will affect you, then sit down and talk it out with a good friend or who is ever closes to you. I even had a chat with my gp about my decisions, they pick up the pieces when the oncologist is finished with you.
It’s your body, your life and you have to decide, no one can make the decision for you. I opted for quality rather than quantity, when the cancer comes back, I will deal with it then, but for now I am enjoying doing the things I love, like dancing, walking, gardening and normal life. Once I’ve finished radiotherapy, I know I will be able to carry on. Your choice, not the oncologist or anyone else and that’s the most important thing. Good luck, hope this help.
By the way, you are not a wimp, this is the hardest decision you will ever have to make and not any easy one, no one envys us making these decisions.