I was diagnosed with cancer 4 weeks ago. Cancer has been removed and Cancer free. I am going through so many emotions as it was all so quick I am struggling with accepting I had cancer. The side effects of treatment is horrendous in my opinion and I am no where there yet.
I feel guilty as atm I’ve had it easy.
Dear TinyLion
So sorry to read your post, we are all here for you and to help you get through this terrible time. Having cancer can be very tough on your mind and body a awful lot to take in.
**I can remember when I was diagnosed I thought it can’t be me and kept asking are you sure and then when the cancer is removed and they tell you, your cancer free you still can’t take it in we don’t accept bad news likewise we don’t always accept good news.
Going forward, not sure what treatment you will be having.**
Take one day at a time and lots of help from family and friends and maybe that special friend out there to have a coffee and a chat with, I would also suggest that you make a few notes how are you feeling and what questions you need to ask when going for your next consultation
Wishes you well, for a good outcome ahead, keep posting and let us know how you are getting on.
biggest hugs Tili 
I think one thing we all need to realize with breast cancer and that regardless of what breast cancer you have, what stage you are, and what treatment you get, the psychological ramifications of it are normally harder to deal with than the physical. We all will lose trust in our bodies for a time and we all will struggle with believing that we can be “cured”. It doesn’t help of course to know that the cure is never guaranteed to any of us although statistically speaking we are way more likely to get it than not. So in saying that, don’t feel guilty for struggling just because you think you had an easier road than some of us. There is no easy road in breast cancer. Hell there is no easy road in cancer period. Treatment always sucks and there will always be treatment and life always changes for the worse. Cancer will never be a gift although certainly good things can come from it. Anyway you are an equal member in this dumb club we all hate and all your feelings are valid.
I had a double mastectomy and chemo and also am realizing that I am struggling a little bit now with the almost dreamlike remembrance of it all. Like physically speaking I am back to pre-cancer days and in fact probably a little better since some much needed weight was shed. That lures me back into a sense of false normalacy, a condition I can’t trust or even feel good about anymore. So I’m weirded out a little right now, too. I think it’s probably normal for those of us who had treatment quickly follow our diagnosis and recovery happen like clockwork. I do have some scans coming up and reconstruction early next year so that will shake up my life I know but right now, everything feels so normal it’s freaking me out. So I’m right there with you. I expect time will help us trust things again but in the meantime we need to remember that we have experienced an horrific trauma and the psychological fallout will happen.