Can't bear this sorry

Hi,sorry to be posting again but I’ve no where else to turn,I feel like I’m going to loose it completely and my anxiety is through the roof and I’ve not slept right in weeks. I was at my Dr a few weeks ago with a raised vein running from just under my right breast down my side,it appeared out the blue and was quite tender,the Dr wasn’t sure what it was but said he would refer me to the breast clinic,I got him to check my left breast aswell as I wasn’t sure but thought from time to time I could feel something,he said he couldn’t feel anything at first but then said he could feel a slight thickening about 2cm×3cm and palpable,he said I would receive a letter within 4 weeks,I have been going out of my mind with worry and today marks 4 weeks and no letter. I called the hospital who have told me I’m 13th on the list and will probably be about May I receive my letter.Ive cried all morning as I can’t handle this waiting and worrying any longer,it’s all I think about and keep thinking the worst and i have 3 kids which is just making this all seem worse. The vein in my right side has returned to normal and isn’t sore so I’m hoping that’s a good sign but I feel now my boobs are tender and aching alot,I’m also feeling a tightness in my chest and I’m panicking it’s something bad and that I’ve got cancer in other places,I’m sorry I know this all sounds really extreme but it’s all I think about and it’s making me really ill,I can’t eat and I just want to sleep all day or not leave the house.my whole life is on hold.so sorry for ranting but I can’t talk to anyone about how I’m feeling as I don’t want to look like I’m over reacting x

Hiya, please don’t apologise, the wait will be escalating your already anxious mind and I know from my experience how exhausting it all is! The fact that your initial worry has settled down is a great sign, cancer wouldn’t come and go. Anxiety will make you feel all the things you are describing, I’m not trying to dismiss your worries but it’s is so debilitating it will make you feel that something must be wrong. 

 

Has your GP given you anything to help with your anxiety ? You do need somebody to talk to as it’s too much to try and keep to yourself , you can always off load here to us but it would also help if you have a relative or friend who will listen without judging you, nobody here will think you are overreacting, once the seed of doubt has been planted it becomes all consuming, we completely understand that. Xx Jo 

 

 

 

Thank you for your reply,I received a phonecall from the hospital this morning to say there’s a cancellation for tomorrow so I’ve took the appointment.Im feeling really nervous but glad I don’t need to wait any longer,just hoping everything is ok

Hi ladies just to let you know I had my appointment today and all went Well,had an examination and the Dr said he couldn’t feel anything untoward and thought I just had quite lumpy breasts,there was an area(the same area I felt the lump) he felt for a while then circled with a pen,he said he would have me scanned just to check but he says he thought it was maybe a cyst,anyway ultrasound showed nothing so he said probably just hormonal or lumpy tissue,so relieved and happy,just want to say thanks to everyone for their advice and help in what felt like a nightmare,you are all remarkable,thank you x

That’s fab, Snickers & thanks for the update as it’s reassuring for others to see that it normally turns out all to be ok.
ann x