Can't stop worrying

I found a lump in my boob about three months ago, left it a while to get checked, when I did go to my GP he said he wasn’t concerned but wanted to refer me to the breast clinic to be sure. I had my appointment yesterday, I went on my own as I wasn’t worried at all but the doctor said he was concerned as he could see dimples as well. They did a biopsy and I go back on the 9th May for a scan and also results. A bit confused why I’m having the scan before getting the results… I have a one year old daughter, I’m a solo mum and don’t have much of a support system so I’m petrified that I might not be around to take care of my daughter.

I know it’s a waiting game now but I can’t shake off the worry. I found this forum and I think the support here is incredible so thought I’d post here x

Hi Penny,

Sorry to hear you’re going through this, as we all have on here. The anxiety when waiting for results is always so hard to handle, but you have done all the right things & IF it’s bc, please be assured that treatment is excellent now, with the vast majority of us getting through it & getting on with life afterwards.

The biopsy will get to the bottom of what the lump is, but the scan will look at both breasts just to double check  

the whole area.

The important thing is, you are having all the necessary investigations & IF it’s bc, then the sooner treatment starts, the better, so that’s good, although of course, it certainly doesn’t feel like it. Hopefully, it won’t even come to that.  

It’s not really possible to escape the worry as the mind goes into overdrive in trying to fill in the gaps, but it can help with the wait to keep yourself busy, to try & carry on as normal & do avoid any general googling of your symptoms, as this will only feed the worry. If you need info, do use the main BCC site here & do come & chat here whenever you need to.

Do let us know how you get on. 

ann x

 

 

 

 

You have come to the right place…the ladies here are well informed and extremely, extremely supportive.  I couldn’t have done without them when I had breast problems last year… It was a benign condition…had the operation and I’m doing fine now.

 

Waiting for the results is the worst time. 

 

Wish you you all the best for the 9th…you’re going to be fine xx

Hello Penny,

 

I just wanted to say “Hello”.  It’s the worst thing isn’t it the waiting and the worry, especially when you have a little one relying on you.  It is very difficult to take things one step at a time isn’t it and yet that is all you can do until your next appointment.  I hope you have at least one family member/friend that you can talk about things to and have a good cry with if you need it.  Remember also that the BCC staff are just a phone call away as well.

 

Most breast issues do not turn out to be cancer.  If the worst does comes to the worst then I hope you can draw strength from the people on this site who will try and support you if needed.  There are quite a few people with young famillies and I hope someone responds to you who can identify more directly with your situation.

 

You did the right thing in getting it checked so congratulate yourself for that. The Breast Clinic staff are being thorough so that is good to.  Do you know what type of biopsy it was? My guess regarding the “scan” is that it will assist with any diagnosis/results.  Do you know what sort of scan you will be having?  Is it a mammogram, ultrasound or other?

 

Best wishes to you and your little one Penny and all the best for the 9th May x

 

 

Penny

 

I just wanted to echo everything that ann said, especially about googling generally because you will scare yourself.

 

We are all here for you and just come on here whenever you need to there will always be someone to help and support you.

 

Sending you hugs

 

Helena xx

Thank you all so much, I honestly appreciate your comments so much!

It makes it a little easier knowing I’m not alone with this experience.

I’ve lost many family members from cancer, not bc though, and seen some horrible things, like my dad die at 46, three months after he was diagnosed. At first I couldn’t handle the thought that it could be bc but now I am starting to be more accepting. I just have moments where I freak out! But I’m 29 and I’m a fighter and from what I’ve read on this forum, the ladies who seem most calm and strong about their situation are those with bc. That gives me comfort.

Chick1 - with the biopsy, I had an anaesthetic and then I shut my eyes but was told there would be some clicking and felt a bit of a pinch. I’m having an ultrasound scan.

X

I don’t really have any advice for you because I’m also waiting for tests and am panicking about my kids too so I know how you are feeling, just know that you’re in the system and getting sorted and you’re in a much better position than you’d be if you hadn’t gone either way xxxx I’m not very good at this lol x

Hi Kells

Thank you for replying and I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through it too.

Can I ask what is happening in your situation, have you had a biopsy? Isn’t the waiting just awful?!

So worrying being a parent to little ones and going through this. Sending lots of love and positive vibes your way xxx

I am waiting for an appointment at the breast clinic but we have decided to go private as we can’t beer the thought of waiting 2 weeks x I should Have all the tests needed on Wednesday evening. We can’t really afford it but consider it something worth putting on a credit card :frowning:

I don’t blame you Kells for wanting to get it looked at sooner, this waiting game is something else!

I made the mistake last night of googling my symptoms and scared myself so much! I am now coming round to the idea that I might have it and that acceptance is actually helping me.

Being present in the moment is helping me too but I’m having moments where I freak out still xx

I think I’ve done my googling for now, I’m very up and down, trying to stay positive. Have started imagining all the pains now. The joys x I hope you feel better and manage to get through your wait. Another day almost over! Xx

Hi Kells

Any update on your situation? I get my biopsy results Wednesday, so nearly there! It’s been a long wait! X

Hiya thanks so Much for asking after me, the consultant gave me a thorough examination, a mammogram and an ultrasound and nothing was found. He could see the skin dimpling but said it could be hormonal and that he is not concerned about it, obviously I’m very relieved I feel like the ultrasound was thorough on both breasts x I’m still bothered that I have the dimple but trying not to over think and keep looking at it constantly x good luck to you on Wednesday I’ll be thinking of you and I will come back and see if there’s an update with you xxx

Sorry I meant tomorrow not Wednesday xx

That’s fantastic news, I am so happy for you and your family!!

The dimpling has been the thing scaring me as Dr Google says the worst for it, so it’s really good to hear positive news. Let’s hope I get good results too ? Xxx

It is Wednesday I get my results xx

Thanks Helena - lesson learnt! I came away in such a panic, definitely not helpful.

I must say though, this whole experience has changed me as a person, I now get the bigger picture, I understand what matters and what doesn’t. Life is too short to worry about the small stuff! So, so far, it’s been very enlightening xx

Hi penny x hope today went ok for you x

Hi ladies

I’ve got grade 2 invasive breast cancer. Don’t be sad for me, I feel stronger than ever. I’m going to be ok xx

I’m so sorry but so pleased you are feeling so positive and if you’ll let me I’ll follow your journey x Please stay on the forum and speak to all the ladies that know how you are feeling xxxx