hello my name is jane first sorry about my grammar. Im 46 and a wife a mum of 3 and nan of 3 my life change feb09 with breast cancer i had op march 09 for full left breast removed and 20 nodes thankfully only 2 nodes positive so it hadnt gone futher that was worst bit the worrie if its spread.It was hard to come to term with cancer as you feel no different you dont feel ill your find ups and downs your cope one day be in tears next.its scary for me just going to hosp with so much info given and choices to be made i wanted to be rebuild at same time as i hate hosp and neddles thought just get it all done in one go.but because i needed after chemo and radio they didnt like do inplants when having radiophathpy.so i was told wait year my year nearly up i dont want be rebuild im happy with my bit i put in my bra.i look at it as a bad apple be cut of and cant spread so when u find a lump get help asap.i just notice my one nipple went in didnt want come out plus notice lost it redness then felt round and found lump centre of breast next to nipple area hard like marble i never thought it be cancer im healthy im big always thought you lose weight if get cancer.so when i went to doc fri am i had call from hosp fri pm to go in for test on monday i then thought it may be ahhh.had wait 2 weeks for results longest 2 weeks of my life my husband came with me and i was still 95% sure i be ok then the word im sorry its cancer whole breast has to go i just said ok that ok im ok trying stay strong next me my husband was sad he cried then we went into another room with nurse who giving as so much info and books to read to much take in and now im worrie about my family and the need for me to be stronge for them we went home think that day was blur hard to tell kids but they was stronge for me i said no tears all go on as best we can.Then march op day i started to write poems of my fears and thoughts seem to help i just wanted get each stage out of the way so i can go forward.Then thought of losing my hair went bought head scafes and wig chemo started yuk yuk and so tired with it used take 4 days get over each one.then my hair started to fall out lump by lump my daughter offered to shave it all over i said lets do it.oh my god i looked like a man i was so sad tears fell then later on that night i thought of my daughter wounder how she felt doing that i never gave it a thought i hope she was ok.the wig 3 times used hated it more comfy with head wear then chemo fin then radio easy conpared to chemo now that fin now on pills and joys of hot flushes but now its my time start living again all treatment finished yippy only thing now is worrie no money work i still have job not be back since feb 09 i work as a carer i had 28weeks ssp only and then get employment support benfit as ive a job that has now be stop becuse assesment on can you walk.talk.eat.drink.hear.see.sit etc you have score 15 none of them asked you have cancer you had treatment how are you coping etc ive appeal other wise have 0 income.my advise to any one if you can take out illness insurance it helps when needed otherwise im going get menatally and phisically stronge again and do so much and see so much and like to wish you all the best in your treatments god bless and stay positive Jane xx
Dear Jane,
You come across as a brave, positive woman without a trace of self pity and with a big, loving family. You have been through the mill, like the rest of us. I wish you a good 2010 (And every year after).
I hope you have the time to recover and the back up to make that possible. Come and join us on “After treatment has finished-When will I feel like me again” thread for more ladies in exactly your situation,
Love,
Mimsy
Hello mimsy I am positive person and try and go forward if anything im going make most of everything now more than ever no life comes with a guarantee for old age.just so happy be over treatment,I take look under the thread chat soon Jane